I wish your soul to be healed faster. I know how hard this is. That kind of relationship leaves a big wound inside us. But we are strong! We're women! Even when we are bent, we are not broken. I'm sure you'll be able to love and trust again. It just takes time. The time will come and the flowers of your soul will bloom again. In my country I deal with this subject in one of the social networks. I'm not a psychologist. But our sister community is working together to help women who have experienced violence and toxic relationships. And over time, indeed, many come to peace of mind and a better life. I am sure that you will also come to happy days full of love and harmony.