I've definitely spent a lot of time in such self enquiry, though I have oodles of friends my age who also are on this path. But was it so back when you started such a journey? Probably not. I think you paved the way for the rest of us.

Am I still surrounded by many people who appear totally (and somewhat "happily") asleep? Hell yes. Does it drive me nuts? Hell yes. Am I aware that it drives me nuts and that's just my own internal reaction to them being the best version of them they know how to be right now? Haha. Hell yes. !LOL

Still, my desire to know my (true) self better and better continues. Endlessly. Every day. Though these days I remember to stare at the trees and appreciate the birds calling to each other and the feeling of the warmth of the sun on my skin a little more often than I did say 5 years ago.

But the up side of such relentless dedication to my own "self growth" (or is it unlearning all the bullsh*t that is not me?) is that I'm clearer than ever about what I really want and what makes me happy. I do still lose this clarity regularly, but the picture comes into sharper focus more often and more clearly than ever before.