Five signs I ignored for a long time that was a warning sign that I had depression.

in Mental Health2 years ago

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The first thing I noticed was my loss in wanting to do anything. And when I mean do anything I am talking about playing blockchain games which is a huge passion of mine. Or just not wanting to go the the store even though I needed groceries. I was also finding my self always making excuses to tell my friends why I couldn't go join them when they invited me out. And at my worse getting up to take my anit-rejection drugs that I must take every day due to have a dual organ transplant. So I found that setting just three small goals even it one might be perhaps just getting up and brushing my teeth. Having those three small goals helped me a lot. Along with therapy of course.

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The second was me either sleeping far too much or not being able to get restful sleep. No to be fair for many years at most of my jobs I worked the late shift. So I always figured I was a night owl and that is just what my body preferred. But then a number of times I started to see the correlation of when I was not doing the best mentally and my sleep pattern. I tried around three different sleeping aides but none of them helped me at all. They either kept me awake, or had me having nightmares. So I went the route of more natural sleep aides and they have helped. As with all of these sings I will mention is that therapy has also helped in all of these situations.

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The third sign was my eating habits had been all over the place. I would either eat only once a day or just stuff myself. Normally I only eat twice a day so after I took a long look at what I was doing and noticed a certain pattern with my eating. So now as I have gotten better I am back to a more normal eating schedule. Having the proper nourishment has definitely helped me. And I certainly think that perhaps diet maybe often over looked when it comes to mental health. I know everyone's experiences will differ greatly, and I am just sharing what is working best for me.

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My fourth sign was definitely poor self image. I was always thinking I was never good enough for a certain person. That they would think I am not on their level so why should I even try. This struck me as odd because in high school I was extremely confident and outgoing. The mind plays tricks with you and you start to doubt if you are more of a hindrance then a help or positive force in the world.

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And the last sign for me was my mood swings. I would be up and happy and the world was perfect. Then an hour late I would be down and everything in life was a choir. The thing I disliked most was the anger and being short with those I loved. I am normally an extremely caring and loving person who would do anything for friends, family, and loved ones. It took a lot of work and therapy to get that under control. That might be the one I am happiest about fixing so to speak. As I have returned more towards my old self.

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If you have managed to stay around this long I would like to thank your for your support. Please feel free to comment below and perhaps share your story. Lets support each other and build each other up. I hope you are having an amazing day or night wherever you may be.

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Tough stuff dealing with mental health issues like that. Lots of things can weigh on us and it’s hard to find the space to get out of a funk like that!

Sounds like you’ve had quite an intense life, dual organ transplants? That’s rough! What organs if you don’t mind me asking and what happened? If those aren’t details you wish to share don’t worry about it! Just curious.

I’m glad that you’ve been able to recognize the signs and spend some time to try and rectify them. That’s an important first step, being able to identify when something is wrong! Hopefully you can get in a better mental space to prevent those things from happening again, or at least as often.

Yea I am very open about my transplant. I got a kidney and a pancreas. I was born a juvenile diabetic. And I suffered kidney failure related to complications due to diabetes. So they decided I was a good candidate at the time for a transplant as I was 32 at the time. The pancreas would help with my diabetes as well. Feel free to comment with any other questions as I know some people do not know anyone who has had a transplant.

You are brave for sharing this, and I thank you for trusting us. I'd like to tell you that in me you can always find a listening friend, but I know from my own experience that, when we can't even get up to eat or take a shower, talking to people seems like a daunting task. Still, I'm here if you ever need to talk to a friendly stranger who might have been through similar things.

I checked all the boxes, and it pains me to admit it. But I know to take it one day at a time, hell, even one minute at a time, and to remember to be kind to myself.

I'm very glad you've found ways to know yourself better and work your way through difficult times. Well done. Remember to be kind to yourself, @squirrelacus!

Thank you for your kind words. Just know that there is somebody who is willing is sometimes the greatest gift somebody can ever give someone. I am sorry that you to have struggled with your own battles. This is a two way street. So if you ever need somebody to talk to please feel free to contact me. I am a great listener. And I often find it easier to help others then to help myself.

Isn't it odd how our mind plays the craziest tricks on us???
That's why its SO IMPORTANT for us to have people close to us who can see through the lies that we tell ourselves and then help us to get back on track.

Those dark voices that make us feel that we arent worthy are not true. They're just lies and we need to reject them as lies.

It's scary when it gets into the space where now you're doing self harm (like not eating, and not taking your necessary meds) yeah... that is a very dark place, but I do understand that kind of malaise. you know? that kind of... hmmm why does it matter

but that's why we need a good support system
to remind us why it matters

sending love to you - thank you for sharing your heart in this post! you don't know who it might help!!!

If it helps just one person then it is worth it if you ask me. And honestly my best friends are all online. I did a lot of stupid things in my 20s and early 30s. So when I finally decided it was time to adult I lost 99% of the people who I thought were my friends. I appreciate your support and kind words. Sometimes knowing somebody is there is the greatest gift anyone can give you.

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