Live To Struggle and Survive

I often wish I could shift this life to someone else. A life that is rich, gentle, and flexible.

I'm worn out from trying to keep up with everything, and I still feel invisible, lost, and restless.

I need a break and to breathe. I want to turn off the world temporarily without keeping track of the time. I feel so worn out and confused, but I still have a success story to tell.

The only thing left in my heart is asking when I will ever be happy and when it will be my turn.

Then, I realized that life is not a race. It is not about who will cross the finish line first, land the job first, or even get married first.

Finding our purpose in life is looking for it in all we do and in everything that has been given to us. The actions we do today will shape who we are in five years. Regain your focus and learn to enjoy the season.

To grow, one must endure pain. I won't grow if it doesn't hurt me. I'm not living if I stay in my comfort zone. Soon, my suffering will lead me to greater places.

I have to accept the fact that not everyone will support me when I'm down, therefore I have to be strong on my own.

Some individuals will simply never be there for me when I need them, but I also need to realize that everyone has a different struggle they are fighting. Sometimes, I suffer alone and am unable to support others because I must first find comfort for myself. I'm too preoccupied with trying to keep myself from feeling hurt and unhappy. No matter what I'm going through, I can't always count on other people to help me; sometimes I have to save myself.

I know that I will experience both the best and the worst emotions throughout life. I’ll still receive hazy road signs from it. It will remain unpredictable, demanding, and challenging at times. Up until I lose my equilibrium, it will keep throwing and spinning me around. Until I figure out how things work out for me, whether I go along with it and be complacent or fight back and take risks, it will continue to push me around.

However, the fact that experiencing its stormy scene and navigating every difficult road are parts of it does not make them any less real. I will always find a way to advance, reasons to board another train, and reasons to keep breathing. Even if I may have kept a lot of your worries and concerns inside over the evening, I will still find myself trying everything the following day.

And I believe that persevering through anything life may throw at us is somehow wonderful to watch.

I'm simply trying to get by right now.

Now, I'm just trying to get by; to achieve what I am able to; should quit worrying excessively about the future; and have hope that tomorrow will be better.

I'm attempting to avoid falling. I must quit assuming the worst whenever my ideas don't come to pass. I should stop getting angry with myself for minor mistakes or inconsistencies.

I am just trying to maintain my fortitude. Not to stray from my course of action and to avoid letting my five-year dream come to nothing.

I am currently able to survive. And I'm hoping that despite how difficult the coming days may be, I'll still have the inspiration to keep going.