Adjusted Self.

in Hive Learners2 years ago

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The only terrifying virtue that can steal my joy and throw me into the dungeon and depths of endless worries.....

~Cesca Jove~


Bringing me back to my thoughts, I sat in a void created by the atmosphere of thoughts as I roamed around my entire existence...

My brain in a supersonic engagement of ideas, blames, regrets, agony, whispering voices and a scream of despair muffled under my pillow.

hmmm... a sigh of relief

Would I be able to get there (aims, targets, plans) as I watch time unfold every day and swim by ... time flies ugh!

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I am trembling and shaking! I worry a lot and my bouncy bed is my comfort! I plugged in my headphones and hit the play button of my boom play music app and the music brought to light, hope, future, and strength!

I'm unstoppable by sia...

I'm unstoppable...
I'm a Porsche with no brakes...
I'm invincible...
Yeah, I win every single game...
I'm so powerful...
I don't need batteries to play...
I'm so confident...
Yeah, I'm unstoppable today...

I found myself ignited with so much courage and confidence, you could hear my singing loud voice from the window...indeed I was fighting depression.

I overcame it and am writing to you now...

My greatest fear has been eating me up and preventing me from seeing the bright beautiful side of life. Of course, I know even a sword has its two faces just like the way life itself appears...you are solemnly responsible for being happy!!

My Fears ;


Not meeting my potential - I live my life in seconds and honestly, I can't watch one pass me by without making good use of it. Let's skip the fact that I wasn't feeling well, certainly one has to take care of health because life is wealth!...what use would it be fighting for careers when you don't have good health?!.. You know those moments during the new year resolution when everyone would predict and hit the stamp beat on the chest and say I am making this up before this deadline...
And now you just watch yourself not even close at all!!...yeah!.. that's one of it.


Jackpot - Making plans certainly needs capital to execute them and put them out in motion. I have been trying to save up such an amount of money to hit my expected jackpot but why have circumstances of life come to steal my efforts away and leave me starting over??... I can't complain enough not because I know how to do so but because I know in life we pass through the maze.


Education - I was once in a dilemma when I often worried if I could sponsor myself in school and do the rest of the things, luckily here I am now done and dusted with my National Diploma Program. Now am back in thoughts if I could still do the Higher National Diploma (HND) although I believe I would but what about BUT. I can't predict but I know since I have started, I can finish too!


Making the wrong decisions - Argh! One of the worst fears in life, this could send me into isolation and loneliness... Gosh!. I fear in advance!...who has ever feared in advance of what may or might not happen...
Each time I am faced with a situation that's quite beyond me, I always retract back and give it a long pause, call it what you want but I love my pace and how I go about things. So what I do is sit back and analyze the whole situation and how to put it under control. Then apply some wisdom and put it into action. Although sometimes I think that fear is a major factor that would boost your thoughts and action in a spree..look at it positively because once you look at it negatively, you just shoot yourself.



In conclusion, these fears show up when we are about to make a big move in our lives and it triggers the retraction idea or the conquering idea. This is the worst thing that ever happened to individuals and if we don't face those fears they build a fenced home around your life and once that happens that individual remains in stagnancy... (one place)...and then you live small and be satisfied with it.



Thank You For Reading My Piece!
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Not meeting your potential...
This is one fear I can totally understand. Knowing you can do so much more but are still just limited to a fraction. That thing can be frustrating as hell and even lead to depression.
But then, life happens and we have to get used to it.
Thank you for sharing this with us.

 2 years ago  

So right Bruno!!!
This is one thing that leads me to extremely deep thinking and honestly I will try as much as I can...
It has really been difficult pushing and scaling through...


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