Many deal with this, you are not alone! feel free to chat with me if you need :)

Also, you can check out an in depth post I wrote about my PTSD (might be triggery to read but it's not a sad ending so maybe it helps) - I hope it will help you find your inner peace :)
https://steemit.com/life/@rainbowdash/how-i-discovered-i-have-ptsd-and-grew-from-the-experience