Balancing the next step in life with resonant intuition is a real skill to be mastered!
Intuition and the inner compass have proven invaluable in terms of what fork in the road to take next and I will not ever stray from it if I can discern correctly. The issue is, sometimes discerning an intuitively "right" choice can be hard among the mind noise that will creep up on you the longer you think on something. The mind wil conjure all sorts of potentials - the unlikeliest of consequences and resulting scenarios become real in the mind when in actuality nothing is clear-cut or foreseeable.
Too many variables, but the mind always portrays it as something "rather likely"...
These past days intuition has been somewhat under water, submerged if you will. It's not like it isn't there but it isn't as clear cut as I would like it to be, feeling I made a choice that felt "right". It's a lot more vague than that, making me feel like I may not be following my intuitive compass after all.
Am I making the wrong choice here or just a lot of fuss about nothing consequential?
My lady and I are feeling we are either the greatest strongest champions of valuing our inner compass in not taking a certain route that has been presenting itself to us for weeks now - or we are plain idiots, turning a mosquito into an elephant (as we say in German), creating problems where there are none and sabotaging our own path through a lot of mind garbage scenarios and "what if's" that ma never materialize...
It's really hard to say.
At times the path forward is clear when intuition just hollers back DO IT! You become uneasy and frustrated if you don't do it. But there are other times recently, when going for a certain route is being answered by life with ever and ever more steep hurdles and challenges.
Is this just a challenge to overcome or is it a roadblock we should take notice of and take a different route?
It's really hard to say. Especially if loved ones are involved and if one's own priorities and goals are not readily apparent in the midst of all the noise of daily choices.
So where am I at right now?
Taking the next step.
Not the next step in a larger context taking me to where I once thought I would go, but rather: The immediate upcoming step. That is more than good enough to get me where I need to be.
We felt we had to move and move move out of the airlock zone we had created in being uncertain whether we should take the road ahead despite all the cosmic signs that we really do not fit there energetically. And so rather than going that way regardless, we felt just a change of scenery would be a really good idea, just to get the "comfort" or a new situation, to shake things up on purpose, allowing life to throw more hints, new experiences and random people our way that would make the "right" (intuitively resonant) path forward more clear and graspable over time.
And today I feel this is the lesson and the whole point of the latest ordeal:
If you don't know which way to take and even intuition can't say one way or the other - just change something. Take the next immediate step before the grand choice and fork in the road and then ask again. Often the result will be of higher quality, a sort of bird's eye overview over the current mind map of the situation.
How do the Americans put is so eloquently?
FIRST THINGS FIRST
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HaHa, I guess you gave answers to your questions. :D
Which is fine. I could follow your steps in thinking, I do it a lot myself.
The more thinking takes place the less random it becomes. So, to decide not to decide is oftentimes the best choice to make. Pressure is released. I would even say that the possibility to stay un-decided can be defined as freedom. There is so much theoretical stuff about what freedom "actually" means, while I think there is no "generality" to be found, only particularity. The moments where we are in real life encounters with others.
When I have a good time with my man and we stroll around or make our ways to whatever we do, it's more likely that things will turn out positive. But it's really tricky "not to think in advance", which kills all spontaneity. One cannot be spontane on purpose, right?