Reality sucks but yah, this is the here and now. I don't think it means giving up on goals or hopes. It is to be in that moment full aware, not distracted, as each moment is the true present, yet fragile as it passes quick.

To be in the here and now is hard for most, humans turn to past and future, barely present. You are forced to be in the here and now, past and future seem lightyears away. Hope is fading, coming back, fading. Anxiety creeps up, battling with rationality. In quiet moments you feel helpless, overwhelmed, empty. Guilt in many forms starts to follow you, unless you learn the here and now. Your friend is psychologist, her expertise is needed.

The good thing, my dear, even though it doesn't seem like it, is that you are aware of yourself. You may not feel like it, but you recognize a PTSD, a change in yourself early on. Not denying it is one important step and it will help you deal with it. Long term. Short time will be a wave you have to ride. It is possible.

Warm hugs and Ukraine strong!