I had a rough week-end. This explains my slow activity in the last 4 days. I felt I needed time to recalibrate myself emotionally. It is not easy because I had difficult things happening to me, one after another, starting with 10th of June, continuing on 12th and culminating with 14th.
I was so happy when I saw the fact that I am number 1 in the Engagement League. I worked so much and sticked to a schedule and my hard work gave me the well deserved spot. Now I need a victory in my life, no matter how small it might be and I thank you all and I thank Hive. I am so grateful for having this.I need it now more than ever...It is my way of coping with everything which is happening to me and to show my creative and emotional side. I salute all the winners from Engagement League and @abh12345 for his initiative on this.
I always took pride in how well I can cope with adversities. I always stayed strong and sailed my way through the storms. But sometimes.. Very rarely... I can't. It is when things pile up and pile up that I am overwhelmed. Where do you reach for support when you feel mostly alone? How do you get up when all you want is to sit down and cry away your pain? I wish I could say it is easy. But it is not sometimes. Even the bravest sailor can have a bad day. I show very little emotions and I hide my sensitive side quite a lot when I suffer. I often hide my pain because most of the times I had no one next to me to share it with and understand me & comfort me. And when I did show my pain... few actually cared because most people are consumed by their own demons way too much in order to have the power to help you tame yours.
I don't know which is the saddest part:that you are sad or that your life is in such a hard spot now that you can't even afford the luxury to be sad for long. Because there is no one out there to reach you in case you fall. Because you have the weight of responsability on your shoulders. This is the hidden part of great character: the high degree of pain through which you have to go through and still remain a good person, still keep faith in people, still fight your battles, still believe in love and in good things coming your way. This is the hidden part most people do not notice on great people because it is kept deep within. It comes with a price: I can often become too harsh on myself and on others because I do not know better. Hardship is all I've been having since childhood...
The best thing I can do is wipe away the pain and get up. Being strong and move on is my only option. Maybe this is the secret of my drive, of my endurance: I know that I have no other option and no other support for my dreams than myself. And yes, it is lonely.... And yes...I can have a rough time. But this storm will pass and I will get to see the sun beyond the dark. Calm seas never made a good sailor.... And I know that I have to get up and start sailing because the other option would leave me shipwrecked. And I sailed too much and too strong to let that happen to me.
Have a good night my Hive community, you are all of great support for me more than you think. Toodle loo!
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I hope that things improve for you... and soon enough!
Congratulations on taking the first spot at the Engagement League. That's awesome! 🤗
Thank you for the support, it will slowly be better. I am indeed proud for nr. 1. A good moment for victory.
Looking back on some of my own personal trials, it makes these uncertain times seem not so bad. Sorry you're having to deal with so much all at once. I had to learn it's okay to ask for help sometimes too. I sure appreciate the support you've shown me on my blog, and even more so now. 🙂
Thank you! I am sure time will heal many things and let people think about their perspective and notice their wrong doings and maybe, just maybe, some will learn. I appreciate your support too:)
Don't bother too much with that league... you'll find yourself engaging just for the sake of it, or for a spot on a chart. I took myself out of it. Get out, have a walk, smash something if you feel like overwhelmed, run, listen to loud music, or sleep. There's no perfect life and there's no storm ending your reality. All shall pass...
I did not expect climbing on top, I genuinely engaged and did my work. I will get through this and I pass my burden to the Universe, let it do the justice, the healing, the revealing of the truth. I am sure that the passsing of time will make people from my life realise stuff and look at these moments differently. Like I will do surely, in the future. Thank you for the kind words!
ENGAGE for you bro.
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ENGAGEtokens.Hopefully, the bad times are over. Might I say that you will be unstoppable if these last four days have been off days for you!
Thank you! I will be unstoppable lol because I am always in a competition with myself
That is awesome, but, working between 50 and 60 hours a week has put a damper on my comments. ;)
Plus, plus. plus... but, I am okay with that. Real life tends to throw those curveballs.
Life is ups and downs. An experience. We have to take it in and sail through it
This life is such a wild ride, isn't it? The constant ups and downs, trying to maintain some sort of balance and equanimity; a psychological tight rope of sorts.
I resonate a lot with this! I've suffered a lot over the years with generalized anxiety and a pretty messed up childhood in restrospect. It pushed me in the direction of meditation. Something interesting that a Buddhist teacher said that to I've been contemplating recently:
You are unenlightened to the extent that you are embedded in your experiences.
Let that rattle around in the ol' noggin a bit. It's quite a profound statement with huge implication for how we relate to our life and experiences.
First of all, thank you for the support! Definetely not easy, I will pass through this and get stronger and wiser. And I am sure that good people, who will stay, will come into my life. Very good quote, I will think about it, it bears a lot of meaning...I often found myself trying to overanalyse or to make people see differently and make them change. I can see how it is wrong because you can't force people out of your life or force them in. Or make them genuinely regret. I can see how detaching from the experience can help in achieving peace and a different mindset. Good people will come, I am sure. Because probably I had to change things about me first in order to attract what I need and have them stay.
Here's a little ENGAGE for you.
!ENGAGE 20
ENGAGEtokens.You’re killing it, beating out @brittandjosie isn’t easy so well done! I’ve been trying for ages now and haven’t been able to hit number 1
The curly hair and glasses look is 👌
Thank you! I embraced my natural curly hair long time ago and I would not change it for the world now. Glasses...I started to wear them this year in january, they are for distance only.
You really are taking this place by storm but don't push yourself too hard. Fight your real life demons and know that we now all have your back now that you are part of the Hive.
I really appreciate the support, that is why Hive is so good for me, I am so sure I wouldn't have had all this amazing support in here on any other platform because most likely I wouldn't had shared it. But here I managed to feel comfortable to express also the not so pink side of my life.... And it does feel so good to see people in here "get me". Thank you for reading me, I really appreciate! I am trying to be gentle on myself and learn that it is ok to not be ok once in a while. I am not made out of titan, I am only human.
Hang in there, whatever you are going through, may the situation pass smoothly with you becoming even stronger. When the pain gets too overwhelming, my recourse is sleep, even though it may be difficult, the short slumber lightens the heavy load a bit during that brief period. Sending positive wishes your way.
So much support, I am so grateful , thank you! I agree with the sleep, I had some issues with it lately, but I will get back on track. I am taking in all those positive vibes , thank you!:)
Firstly, WOW, you're beautiful 😍 Love the glasses and the curls.
From the time I joined here, have always been a fan of your work. Tough times are always testing times. But the feeling you get after coming out of it is totally sweet and worth it. Just hang in there.
Thank you for your compliment!Tough times are not easy. I have found it is the hardest to maintain a good heart and the good energy for pursuing your dreams after you feel shattered in a million pieces. I think my heart has so many stiches that now it is almost invincible. I know myself well enough to know I will not take anger , regret and resentment and sadness with me because I know that it wouldn't be good for me. People come and go, some might stay, some might not. Some might hurt you and go along with their lives . Some might consider they have not done nothing wrong. Some might never know they done wrong because no one is telling them. Accepting that I have to move on regardless of people's good/bad reaction is the best thing. Time will show people their mistakes and it will heal wounds and reveal the truth. Thank you for your support, I appreciate it now a lot!
Yes, Time will heal everything. Just be patient and stay strong. And the HIVE family will always be there to support you
Aww thank you😊Hive does feel like a little family, I love it here😍
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You give me hope
Thank you
I'm happy to hear that! Always hope!
You have the drive and that's what you need. Nice to see your face! Go get em!
Ah I needed to hear that! Thank you!🤗
Raat, yer welcome!! Keep on hivin! 😀
I will!!
They do say that bad luck comes in batches, and so hopefully you have weathered the storm and are due better times ahead.
Thank you! They sure came in a big batch now. Will power through. Thank you for the support! 🤗
My pleasure, let's have some blue skies ahead!
And calm seas!!
Best way to escape the British isles at present seems to be on a raft and so calm seas would also be handy!
That's it, in gonna build one and live a life on the high seas and crypto!! :0D
A raft must be about all you can afford at present then!
UU sailor life, that is quite an adventure!
Yess and fluffy clouds
We fall down so often in life and are left with only two options; Stay there, or get up. It seems you've chosen the latter many times which is a credit to your character, integrity and perseverance.
Rock on Mary, your future will thank you.
Ohhh yes, this is so good for me reading this. Thank you😊🙏 Future Mary will be grateful for this, you are right
Life always is about easy and rough patches. too bad when rough ones stretch too long, but it helps me at least to know that such is inevitability and it will not be forever. I take it as part of life and try to learn and enjoy it as much as possible too and you know, after certain period of time training myself i'm quite good at this and it is not that stressful anymore :) I suggest trying that little bu little and it will become a more natural feeling :)
Good advice! Life is a learning experience and every day gives us this opportunity
It takes time, effort and practice, but definitely pays off in a longer term as life quality improves significantly.
I agree!
Take a deep breath and take it easy - life isn't so serious. Sometimes a step back is the step in the direction, sometimes it is not a bad idea to sidestep and keep moving forward :)
Take care of yourself.
I think it is a good idea to see it this way, thank you. It is difficult to look at a situation and substract the emotions and the suffering and also keep your strong behaviour like nothing happened. My sea is not very calm now, but I will get there. The support from here means a lot, I am actually feeling a bit better just because I had the courage and trust to admit I am not always all mighty and strong and to accept I can experience also vulnerability...
Life can be challenging and the emotions make it worse and difficult to overcome in the harder times. I practice disconnecting from my emotional response so that it doesn't affect my actions. I can still acknowledge the feeling, but I don't have to be consumed by it.
That is a good strategy for preventing powerful emotions disrupt important decision making!
Always stay positive my dear friend @creativemary...
I believe all will be fine... It's well with you.
Stay blessed!
Thank you, I really appreciate your kind words! Have an awesome day!
You're welcome. Thanks too. And have a blessed day!
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music show us that there is major and minor chords, happy and sad moments
True! The symphony of life
Engagement can be breathtaking, it can also be fun, I must say cheers to you because it's important that one puts their foothold and do the things they want. I think you'll do great things here on hive
Thank you! 😊
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Life always is about easy and rough patches. too bad when rough ones stretch too long, but it helps me at least to know that such is inevitability and it will not be forever. I take it as part of life and try to learn and enjoy it as much as possible too and you know, after certain period of time training myself i'm quite good at this and it is not that stressful anymore :) I suggest trying that little bu little and it will become a more natural feeling :)
It seems to me that you take life too seriously and place high demands on people
In fact, life is a game. You can play by the rules of others or set your own
In the first case, you will lose your life and yourself, but life will be quite simple.
In the second case, get ready for the fact that not all will accept your rules and will right away. But it will be your life. Most importantly, by setting the rules to stop thinking about them. After all, this is just a game by the rules and the rules can be changed.
I value staying true to my principles. And obeying my own moral compass while making sure I remain a good person.
I think it is good to want more from yourself. For personal growth
Everything is correct. I talked a little about something else, but that doesn't matter. It is important to remember that any of our serious activities are only part of a game called life:)
I agree😊