Seems like you've going through the ups and downs of Steemit. Trying to make living in any field, blogging, etc. is never easy. Well, one day, you'll be able to look back and say, this is what I've achieved after all the hardwork I've done. I would say the sense of satisfaction will be immense. Keeping writing original content or sharing interesting stories and push through the lows. Most importantly, just have fun doing what you are doing. Don't stop steeming! :D