Hi, guys!
Today I decided to make myself a day off, because now I need to go to the dentist, remove the stitches, and also heal those teeth that the doctor left the last time, and for me this is a huge stress. And I'm terribly afraid of dentists, and most often this fear translates into an inadequate reaction in the office - I sit down in a chair and start laughing. Often the doctor will ask me if I’m high, but no, it’s just my stress response.
I still really need to complete the assignment for the courses, so far everything is sad with him. Coming up with concepts is my weak point, I still like rendering more. He sat down, relaxed, drawing. But when I need to strain my imagination, I start to get nervous, the drawings turn out to be lean and boring. But I hope that I can still cope, I have to cope, because without passing this assignment I will not have access to the next one.
In Kiev, unbearable heat, 35 degrees in the morning. And in this situation it is necessary to somehow continue to live and practice, including sports. Yesterday I returned to the stretching and pylon after installing the implant (I had to wait a week for some initial engraftment to take place). I was very glad to be in the gym again.
A nice bonus from doing strength sports is that after you do not think a thing. With the pylon, that's exactly how it works. After practicing for two hours, I come home and even my depression recedes a little, because the brain has pumped too much load for it and can no longer frighten me. Of course, this is not very useful for me, on the contrary, I should stick to calm activities, but sometimes I just so badly want him to shut up. And he is silent after heavy, disproportionate loads. He is silent for a while, and then starts the old song again.
This is what I have chosen as a method of struggle. Constant employment. I will not leave the episode, so at least I will raise the level. In addition to sports, I do music every day (I play the flute, guitar and piano), as well as go to the vocals. True, now in order to reach the studio, you need to collect the maximum of your courage, because the outside is really unbearable heat.
See you in the next post!
Love, Inber