Hi, guys!
I am getting better and better, my depression is receding and I am getting more and more opportunities to work calmly, which makes me very happy. I can calmly spend more and more time productively, and this makes me very happy, I am simply beside myself with happiness. But at the same time, I am constantly taking into account that I cannot speed up too much, I need to constantly take into account that I need to think about how I need to calculate my strength and think about how exactly I should distribute it.
Today I will do a piece of work again, but I will not strain myself too much. I need to constantly understand how much energy I have in reserve and how much I can afford to spend. It is very important not to spend more than I have and to make sure that the energy pool is constantly filled. For now, I am working on making sure that my work moves forward every day and now I am adding to this the fact that we have healthy food at home, I am going to cook a lot of things today. After that, I am going to restore my training schedule. I am going to do everything step by step, without sudden movements.
So far my plan to get up really early in the morning hasn't worked out very well, but it may need some improvement. We'll see if I've set the bar too high and need to lower it a bit. But overall I think it's going to work. Maybe tonight will be better than last night. It can't all happen at once, I need to get used to it happening gradually.
I'm already thinking about everything as a long-term project, rather than something that needs to happen right away. Maybe that's healthier thinking. It feels right to me.
I'm going to do a few hours of work now and then start cooking.
Have a great day everyone!
