This is the fifth day - what's wrong with me?

Hi, guys!

Today is already the fifth day that I have a very hard time forcing myself to do anything. In the morning I talked to my psychiatrist - he told me to urgently increase the dose of antidepressants and after that monitor my condition to see if an exacerbation was sneaking up on me again. I really hope not, because I’ve been very tired of this swing for a long time and I want at least a couple of months of peace. But apparently it’s not my destiny.

It's the third day since I can't study normally. Today I plan to force myself to the table at least for some time, because it’s impossible to drop out of the process, especially since I don’t have much time left to stay in it, only until the fifteenth day of next month. Now I'm late for one lecture and one book that I need to take notes on. I’ll try to strain myself today and cope with both.

It's still raining here and it's terribly cold. I like it, but only as long as I stay at home. Now is not the weather for walking dogs, but it turns out that I leave the house so rarely that I’m already starting to be afraid of it, and this is a very alarming sign.

You need to try to pull yourself together and return to sports activities and walks. As always, after a pause, I’m very scared to do this, but little by little I’m learning to take it easier. In the end, absolutely no one will eat me, and I need to remember this, because the fear is some kind of primitive one.

I hope everything will be fine in the end, I'll go and try to work :)