Regarding your fear of the unknown when it comes to travel, so much of that is about certainty vs uncertainty. Life can become dull and boring when you know exactly what is going to happen each and everyday, and you are certain of every next move you make. From when you'll be watching your favorite show on TV to what time you'll be getting out of bed.

For me I love the uncertainty of travel, to not know what is around the corner, who I'll meet, what I'll see. To me that is the thrill. Sure that comes with fear and anxiety, but 10 years later it's just pure excitement and fun now. I'm a totally fearless traveler at this point. If I stay in the same place where I'm certain of every little thing, I get bored and feel my life is dull.

As far as addiction. Some say it's genetic, i had an uncle with problems which took his life. For me I can't say it's running or escaping, but maybe, maybe escaping boredom. I strongly feel like I have so much free time I have to fill it with something, and it's so often one pleasure or another.

I've created a life for myself where I'm incredibly wealthy in free time. The struggle is how do I fill that. Last time I stayed in one place I filled my free time with what I thought is a man's dream, all day drug fueled sex with my model Ecuadorian girlfriend.

Now that can be addicting for any man. Well that ended in disaster as we slowly turned into a couple drugged out scumbags. That's when I left that environment and got back to what I love, travel..no drugs, no alcohol, no women, just me my bag and the excitement of where I'll be next.

I've done well financially and manged my money wisely. I'm not rich by western standards, but I am in Guatamala and places like that. I've only worked maybe 4 or 5 years in my life and I really don't "need" an income from steemit even though it allows me now to live a fuller life not having to be so"budget conscience" as I hate to dip into savings.

My point is, my money has made me weak, where I was like I don't need this sh*t and just walk away, regarding steemit and my series of 30 cent post. Combined with hours on the computer away from my normal lifestyle which you can see first hand here https://steemit.com/travel/@world-travel-pro/a-day-in-the-life-koh-pha-ngan-thailand

Maybe you can understand where my bad attitude came from. Don't get me wrong, I do kinda of need the money, but not compared to many other's on here. For me it's the difference between traveling Europe, or living for 400 dollars a month very well in places like Cambodia. So steemit is a blessing and your support as well.

As far as my "steemit addiction" I can handle that now that I see myself as being successful on here with a bright future. I see it like, being addicted to steemit...ok, at least there is a payoff, with friends and income. Imagine drinking beer all day with the goal to get drunk and a few hours in you learn your beer is non-alcoholic.

And on that note, your friendship is quickly turning out to be more valuable than the "support" I've mentioned and I thank you for that. I hope this super long email, hasn't taken up too much of your time.

I think it's wonderful that you have a beautiful family and you want to take them traveling. Hopefully someday I'll have the same.

Are you a fellow American, or from some other part of the world if you don't mind me asking.

Hope you are well,

-Dan