My heart is bleeding as I read every line. My thoughts and prayers for you and your family. Be strong for your family. They need you now more than ever, especially your mother.
If writing like this would help in releasing some of those emotions you've been keeping, by all means, please write more.
I probably have been reading this late. I have been in a slump in terms of writing and curating lately. I should have read this yesterday because it was poshed by @daltono, but I slacked off in my posh curation.