Blog No. 407
Hello everyone,
Yesterday, two of my office colleagues left the organization where I am currently working, after completing a wonderful 2 years with us helping us to build the company more stronger and better. I am new to the organization and just completed my 68th day and I now feel how I attached I was with them when they were around us, smiling, guiding, teasing and now everything is like a flat line, no noise. It feels like a still which I had before in my life, feels like a block and you can't do much in such thing. After getting the news that they both are leaving together, I was like a sudden pause. I understand that nothing is permanent or static, things will change and you just can't stop it, the law of nature. I am an introvert guy and don't like to get socialize with my physical environment. I sit, do my work, finish my tasks and get back to rest. No talks, no interest. This kind of feelings you only feel when things leave you and I tried to hold my self stronger before breaking out.
Right now I am playing a lot of songs on loop, trying to get out of what I am feeling right now. And I just don't want to break this loop, the more I am in it, the more I can fill that how much joy was back then. I just don't want to message both of them, because I know, more or less they are having the same feel and poking them right now will make things emotionally complex for them as well. Look I care so much for you. I don't know whether you are going to read this or not, but I feel hard this side, that's all I want to say. I don't talk much but I care things as much as I can. I am not checking grammars or anything like I usually do while writing, I just let myself to flow. If both of you think that whether I cried or not, to be clear I hold myself pretty tightly because everyone was looking into each other's eyes, making sure that no one burst out while saying the goodbyes.
Thanks for showering loads of love on me and guiding through all ways, making me laugh even when I was under the great workload. I can see that other colleague sitting around the office feeling the same way as I am. I thought it will be easy to get out of such a situation where your friend or family member's saying goodbye but it was a lot tougher than expected. That's all I can write right now...