Hello Again

Oh my, oh my!

I’ve never been away from Hive for this long. What’s it been….two months? I miss this space.

So, let’s do a quick recap and a little life update.
Hi, I’m Mide, the passionate femininity enthusiast with a weird sense of humor. Yes, I laugh in situations that are far from funny. But honestly, I take that as a trophy.

There was a time in my life I hated how much I cared, how deeply I cared, and especially how badly things that wouldn’t naturally hurt others would hurt me.
Safe to say, I envied people with the capacity to be as nonchalant as possible. But over time, one of the beauties of self-awareness is truly knowing and embracing yourself, scars and all. Now, I allow myself to feel it all, but that’s where it ends. “Feelings.” They are not allowed to interfere with my decisions. It’s just like a mentor of mine said, “Fear, in the state of feeling, is powerless. It becomes powerful only when you act on it.”

Yup, I digressed again, didn’t I? Lol. That’s another thing to know about me, focus has to be intentional, otherwise my brain will happily wander to ten different branches before landing where it should.

I remember the first time I got a job after NYSC. I told you guys about it and received a lot of congratulations, probably because I also ranted constantly about how scary life after school looked. What a phase that was, lol. And when I walked out of that job, I told you guys too.

Well, happy to say again: I got another job. One that suits my creative side so well. This job lets both my creative and organizational traits shine, so I can’t complain. It’s beautiful, really. Now, why am I back all of a sudden? Two things prompted my return:

I just realized I can actually download the Ecency app on my phone. Which I did. And it makes things a lot easier because now I can write anytime, anywhere. I love that! No idea why it took me this long to figure it out.

I had a major breakdown last week. Why, you ask?
All my life, I’ve always felt excellent, brilliant, high IQ… the good stuff. Then I got to a point where certain circumstances made me start questioning my intelligence and excellence. I felt average. Mediocre.
When I traced the source of the problem, it led me straight to my use of AI. Those days when I relied heavily on my own brain for ideas, when I searched the internet intricately and read articles deeply, those were my days of excellence.

This is not an AI slander, but the reason I lost that touch is related to my heavy reliance on it. I’ve also noticed how bad my memory retention has become. It wasn’t great before, but now? Damn! It’s almost as if my brain knows there’s an easier, faster option, so it’s no longer willing to do the work. Making it work now, like memorizing things, takes so much energy. SHOCK!

So, what could help me fix this? I thought about the wonderful Hive. How about writing daily? My own words, my own ideas. I could even take it a notch higher by learning a new word every day and using it in my write-ups.

How can you help me? If you know more ways I can sharpen my brain again, to reach that level of excellence again, or even beyond,
please comment below.

And don’t say screen-time reduction because that’s non-negotiable. It pays my bills, lol. Lovely to be here again. 🤍 How have you been?