My dating life

So as you know, I am in a relationship from January with that guy from work as you remember, or I may not remember he asked for my number when he was playing tennis and he was chatting with me a few times when he wanted to pay and then he asked me for a contact we started texting. I didn’t want to go out with him. We went out. It was super shy, super sweet, super clumsy we liked each other we got together , we actually never hang out outdoors. It was always in his flat and it was really really nice and funny and romantic became so dead because we do have jobs and everything mood swings and everything. We actually really quickly became so static that like we are five years into marriage and it was just to see each other not enjoying each other’s company even though I did enjoy it was nice for me to be next to him, but he was just so static and you know we hang out we go to bed. We wake up. I don’t know how to explain it and I actually started that topic and he actually really agreed with that but he actually broke up with me. He said you know everything that I said and I totally agreed with him. I actually didn’t say my other opinion that I had because I clearly have some other opinions because I’m not breaking up with him even though I feel the same way about our hang out, but only two days after that, he actually contacted me and he was like I want to talk to you. I want to talk about, everything we can communicate and communicate I did say my opinion is that he’s really good guy and we had such a nice time together and I think he is worth of talking and communicating and getting our relationship into that one good way

He said that he didn’t think that way he was thinking about we are together for the three months and you know there is no spark/fireworks and I said it was in the beginning, of course, but we are two adult people with jobs and we can’t have that , I don’t know teeb love, I think that the butterflies go and you feel comfort and safe and that’s how I feel and that’s why I didn’t break up. I was trying to maintain adult world with that dose of spark and he actually agreed with that so we got back together and we just talked about what should we do or not do and we actually managed to go outside on a date besides you know playing tennis it was really good. The problem is I dont feel comfortable with me literally being in a free trial because he said you know I want to give this a chance so we can see if we click and I was like I clicked with you so it has that side of me being I’m sure and me, literally being under the restrictions with my own behaviour and feelings because of I need to click you know for him sorry it was a roller coaster but you know I I hang out with him yesterday and I think it was nice. I always think it’s nice. I was not sleeping well and he did in the kiddle of the night like cuddling my head when I was sleeping just because…you don’t do that if you don’t like someone don’t know is really complicated but it’s nice and I enjoy it that I’m thinking every minute of it so we’ll see how it goes but this is our little life

The pictures are from the picnic that we went to