Soon after his death, I was elated by the fact that he is no longer in pain, which he suffered for many many years. I carried that pain too, had to witness it all day everyday. Now that narcotics are hard to come by, suffering has increased for a great many people.

But I am also bereft over the thoughts and feelings lost, the opportunities never realized, the conversations we could have had, the love.

Love increases without bound when a loved one dies in your arms. I am grateful that he and I had that time together, that our final words to each other included I love you, over and over.

Thank you for your words, words only Carol Kean can write. xoxoxoxox I love you