29 years of existence and counting!

Age is supposed to be just a number but for me its more than that. Turning 29 this June 2021 made me think about a lot of things especially about myself. I am an advocate of self-discovery because there are things about ourselves that along the way we didn't know we are capable of. Its been a year full of unbelievable discoveries and experiences, of growth and change, and of learning and unlearning.

I am very fortunate enough to have a wide range of experiences from academics, adventures, sports, travels, trauma, happy events, betrayals, romance, enlightenment, etc. Too many to tell. And from it all, I have grown to be a much better person than I was. I am now conscious of my soul's journey in this lifetime.

So I'm sharing here some things I have learned about life throughout my 29 years of existence. No worries, this wont be a long post.

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HONOR YOURSELF.
This took me a long time to learn and learned this the hard way. I've learned to respect and appreciate my imperfect body, my overthinking and chatty mind, my strong and fierce personality, my dynamic energy and my own unique journey in this world. I've accepted all parts of me - the good and the bad. And because of that, I've loved myself a bit more each passing day.

It is also important to honor the special gifts that one has. I have spiritual gifts and before I never understood why I have them or let alone knew that I have them. A lot will be skeptic about it, many will never understand, some will even doubt you but who gives a fuck? As long as I am true to myself, then I will be fine. As long as I use these gifts for goodness, then I will be fine.

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EMBRACE OTHER'S UNIQUENESS
On the journey of self discovery, I have induldge myself into learning about my unique personality may it be through astrology (natal charts) or personality classifications like the Myers-Briggs, or through Energy profiling. I am unique and so as others. No one person can be the same. And so as I learned to understand myself, I have become to understand others.

Sometimes, even meeting someone for the 1st time, I can easily read what personality they have or what energy profile they have and this gives me a chance to adapt to them or adjust myself so I can connect with them easily. Also because of this, I know which people to protect myself from or leave a certain group of people because I know our personalities and energies will never match.

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LIFE IS CONSTANTLY CHANGING AND SO ARE YOU
Get a degree, be a licensed engineer, work abroad and get filthy rich. 10 years ago, that was me. I thought I have everything figured out. But I was so wrong! I used to have this superficial dreams and goals and just like everybody else I thought happiness was achieved when I've achieved certain things in my life. But once I got there, I realized that these goals and dreams were without purpose and so didn't feed my soul. They were but societal programming and was never my own.

At 29 years old, I'm back to square one. I'm still figuring things out although I already have a general vision of what I really want to do but it takes time to really know your purpose in life. And you know what? it is damn well fine to take your time, change plans, still be single and change your career at 29 like me or when your are in your late 40s or at any point of your life. One should never follow the constructs of society and start following your own path.

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OUT WITH THE OLD, IN WITH THE NEW
To welcome change into our lives, one must willingly give up your old self. Those old beliefs, old habits, old dreams and goals, old values, old principles, our old selves - must already be thrown out from our lives. All those part of ourselves that no longer serves our highest good - Thank them and let them go. I can't tell you HOW to do this, you have to figure that on your own but I could definitely say it takes a lot of bravery and commitment to do so.

It's a very uncomfortable experience but definitely worth it. For example, I have to let go of those old friends which I thought were good for me or no longer is substantial for my growth. I don't dwell on being sad or emotional if they have only been a part of my life in the past or if I have only shared a short period of time with them.

When they have serve their purpose in my life, I've learned the lessons that I needed to learn from them, I thank the universe for such people and let the universe work on moving them out of my life. Only then, new people or your tribe can come into your life for new learnings, guidance and positivity. This is also applicable to romantic partners.

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HEALING IS A MUST
When we have injuries and wounds in our physical bodies, we tend to it so that they will heal. Sometimes it happens overnight, sometimes it takes months. Same as with our traumas and emotional wounds accumulated since childhood. If we don't heal them, they will soon manifest into addictions or severe illness like depression.

I have my own share of trauma and wounds so deep that it took me years to heal and some I'm still trying to heal. Before I had an awareness about them, I indulged myself on alcohol and was looking for love in all the wrong places. I quite made a mess with my life to the point I literally didn't know myself anymore. There is shame and guilt because of all the fucked up things I did in the past. But I've slowly forgiven myself for it.

I'm continuously working on my healing (its an ongoing process) through different healing modalities - energy healing, sound healing, yoga, spiritual retreats, meditations and many more. I've explored spirituality and never gave up on myself. Also, reach out for help and find your tribe or your people for support because we are never alone in this journey of self healing.

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ENJOY LIFE AND FALL IN LOVE WITH YOURSELF
Life is a beautiful adventure. There will definitely be ups and downs but in the end I'll be ok. I'll survive and move forward. I'll celebrate every little wins in life and learn lessons from every failure I'll encounter. I will feel all my emotions and cry when I need to because its better to release them. I will thank all people that come and go because they are just but teachers about life. I'll listen to my intuition more because I know I am divinely guided. I believe in karma and reincarnation so I'll do more good things in this world.

I'll stay true to myself, and no more people pleasing. I'll help others along the way especially those also on the journey of self healing and self discovery because that ain't selfish but self preservation. Its ok that things are not always going according to my plans and goals, I'm always redirected to something better and in alignment with my path and purpose.

I'll always be that person who tries different things and might not stick to one thing because I'm a Gemini and that's not a bad thing. I've learned to dance Bachata and free-dive, and blog again all because I gave up my 9-5 job. I'm into Tarot cards, crystals and energy - and its not everyone's cup of tea and its ok too.

I will fall in love with myself over and over again every time I get lost. I'll never get tired of travelling and meeting new people, that's how I learn more about life and get to enjoy just being me, no reservations. I'm technically single now, want to get married in my late 30's, and adopt kids. I don't give a damn what others might think of that. It's my life.

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Thank you for dropping by. Sending you love and light.

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Clara Pilca

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