It seems that the life we lead, has a combination of multiple situations while encountering any kind of certain or uncertain situations, We love to predict that as it's one of our prime attributes, yes, sometimes the predictions get a proper placement and sometimes we get an anti outcome of the prediction which truly hauls our blow up. Sometimes you just neglect something in a very light way that there is nothing to be much conscious about, but in a dramatical way the reality amazes our mind and our intellectual brain gets the same question again and again by ourselves but we don't get a proper answer of the question to rest our brain. What If I would not heed that matter so lightly?
It's like the last couple of weeks have passed like a deep-down effect, in a single period of time multiple incidents just crashed and I was just speechless to find a proper outcome. It was just to be held my in course exam within a week and I was a bit busy to take the preparation, all of a sudden I heard the news from dad that my grandma's physical condition was not so good that's why the local doctor transferred her to the capital for better treatment to serve.
Well, the news amazed me a bit when I heard at first but my subconscious mind was not ready to worry too much as it's a pretty common scenery to us, She had to be admitted to hospital for having diabetes and others stuff related like this. She got a little fractured on his right leg's index finger. As she has been suffering from the illness for a long period of time, she had to be regular on his morning walk to maintain her sugar level. Well, by just walking, her body's sugar level was not being balanced whether she had to push Insulin in vain to balance the sugar level as well.
Well, after getting hurt on his right leg's index finger she hid from others though she could not able to hide it for so long. As the lower portion of the finger started poisonous, my dad had known by that time. In the meantime, my dad & other uncles were very nervous after hearing from the doctor. Yes, the infection and it's poison were gradually spreading to the whole body. It's just near to be a week since she was admitted to a well-known hospital in the capital, I thought everything was going to be fixed soon after her operation.
As we had the same experience a couple of years earlier she had faced the same issue with one of her leg's finger which had been cut off and this time the same thing was happening. Yes, I had a bit of fear in my heart but I was optimistic that nothing serious would happen. I had known before the exam day her right leg's infection had spread to his knee and that also was spreading a very bad smell to the whole room. Yes, there was no hope if the lead was not being detached. Alas! How pathetic it is. What to do now, there was no clue at all. Finally, the doctor announced very clearly that if you do not make the decision too early then it's better to take your patient at home.
Yes, elders decided that they were interested in the operation and they chose that decision as there was no alternative way to be back as it felt like a death game. I was very fond of her, in other critical times I was close to her except this time. It's pretty much hurting me right now as I'm recalling the moment for writing this one. Elders took that decision to get a positive result rather we got the opposite and when I came back home after participating in the exam I got news during the time i was truly not ready for it.
Well, her blood pressure just dropped and it's just not pulling its normal pressure back. Instantly, I decided to go to the capital in the next train that's why I sent a phone call to hear the latest condition of her to my dad. He replied, "There is no reason to come, she is not responding." On the very next day morning I got a phone call from my mom while I was in tuition, "Where're you? Come back home quickly your grandma is no more. "
This one regret will suffer me for so long, What if I took the time to see her for the last time even though I did not know it was our last meeting until death?