Hahahahaha! No, definitely NOT an accusation to you or anyone!
We ARE often our own worst critics!
What you are feeling right now is something I feel in myself a lot as well.
I ask myself: "Why didn't I write something? Why was I not more consistent? Look how far others have gotten and how far behind I am! I could be there."
Take a breath. And fall in step with the next moment you can. Don't be too hard on yourself. Don't worry about "what-if".
Rather look at what you CAN achieve.
I was supposed to post this post in the morning. But it was not ready yet. So I posted it in the afternoon.
Still a valid and satisfying piece of work though, and your content should be too!