The Fire Ignited Inside

in Reflections11 months ago

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I may not be healing fast physically, but mentally I am on the fast track. I took a little step back from my online activities this week. I might have made a post and a few comments, but nothing like I usually do. I wasn’t hanging out in Discord like I usually do either. This was to check and make sure that I was not growing dependent on my blogging or other online interactions in place of other offline social engagements.

I can say, although I missed some of my online interactions, it was not like I had withdraws or anything. There was no feeling of a need to pull away from my offline interactions and check my online messages or comments that had been left.

My climb out of the isolation hole is almost complete.

It is almost complete, because until I can drive again, and transport myself around without dependence on others, it will not be complete. For this to happen I must meet certain medical milestones, which I haven’t but slowly building to them and WILL get there.

Not being able to drive has probably been a real mental ass kicker for me. One, I am a grown ass man and should be able to drive myself. Two, I don’t like being dependent on other people.

But I have come to grips with not only my driving, but my other physical challenges recently. That doesn’t mean I have to like it, but it does mean I need to adapt and overcome. One thing this week of taking time away from the computer screen allowed me to do was think more about my mind and body situations.

There is a person here on Hive who reminds me a great deal of some of the folks I used to serve with in the Marines in his thought processes. He challenges me in both mind and body, whether he knows it or not. Lately, reading some of his posts and dialoging with him has motivated me into exercising the core leadership traits and principles I once lived and breathed by when I was a Marine.

To be a leader, one must lead themselves and set an example before they can expect to lead others. I have failed miserably in this area. Although I am no longer a leader of young Marines and Sailors, I am a leader of my family, and should be in my community in one fashion or another.

So, although I may not be the physical specimen I once was and I am fighting mental demons, there is a fire in me that still burns. I just didn’t know it. Now I must continue stoking that fire, building it up to a roaring monster once again.

It is that monster that adapts and overcomes. That monster will not allow setbacks like not being able to drive, stop him from getting shit done and enjoying life…again.

Thanks for reading,
Joe

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Don't live your life by default - I assume :)

Two, I don’t like being dependent on other people.

This resonates a lot with me and it is something I am trying to overcome and start to be more open to getting help from others. I can't expect myself to be able to do everything in such a complex world, so building and being part of a community is what is able to cover these needs. I help others where they need it too, so I should be able to rely on them from time to time when feeling weak.

I guess it is similar in some respects to being in a platoon - everyone has their different roles to play, their different specializations and all have to rely on each other to do the job they are assigned and trained for. People fail yes, but that is also part of being in a community.

One, I am a grown ass man and should be able to drive myself.

I wonder how many people would benefit when self-driving cars are common place. After all, while you "should be able" it doesn't mean it always works that way. S-DVs might give that independence, and the support for many.

I should start being more open to receiving assistance from others. I have provided assistance to others whenever I could, and still do as I am able. Just need to adjust my thinking like you suggest. Great analogy with the platoon.

The self-driving car is something that may benefit many people in the future. I think it is still a few years off from me feeling comfortable relying on one.

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Getting older sucks... Not being able to drive is a hassle and hopefully soon you will get cleared medically. It's hard to accept help, but at least you have someone willing to help. Keep the fire alive to keep on progressing, I know there's no way in hell I could three to five second rushes like in the army days, but I enjoy where I am now (and why the hell would I want to do that again.) Sounds like you're getting there, don't let DMV bastards get you down! How long until they can clear you medically?