Greetings Friends
Once again, it has been too long. Not easy to choose a creative direction when your mind is busy and life is happening, but on we must go.
I have been thinking over the meaning of life, the future and everything a lot lately. Part of me thinks I should have already figured this shit out somewhere in my twenties. Oh well, what can you do right.
Funny how, sometimes there can be too many and too few options at the same time. People like to tell you that you are talented, to just choose something, kick ass and make it happen and while that is all good and well, no one can ever tell you how. Probably because none of us really know.
As for me, for the longest time now, what I want has been mostly simple, in practice really. Just a simple nice life. Not boring. A small space to create, without having to deal with face to face interaction all the time BUT also maybe a little shop or something similar to sell some of these creative bits and pieces. A place filled with art and music, and my own, where I can sometimes be among a few friendly faces. Definitely in a small seaside town somewhere. A place that gets quiet at times but also has tourists, and something fun happening every weekend, should I choose to participate.
I want hours of sunsets and mist that you cannot see through somedays. I also want cats, a whole bunch of rescue cats, always. Also...not saying anything is wrong with the place but I definitely do not want to stay in this country. It is beautiful but for so many years, it just hasn't felt right.
This is where the tricky part comes in. It is fine to have a dream and a clear image of what you want in life, but the danger of nothing else being good enough while attempting to achieve it can be very real. Also knowing how to actually achieve any of this seems like a monumental task.
Being creative is nice, but when you are also all over the place, trying to decide between finally doing that tattoo learnership, attempting to see if you can cover fashion design studies while not certain if it is even worth it or trying to find a low experience job that'll pay well enough to maybe someday get you to where you want to be. Hell, it all is a lot, and not even all the options. Then there is the looming 'what if, you just get stuck and there is no more, nothing bigger, no spooky misty seaside town, instead just a long life of shit views and no travelling. So much to ponder.
Some days, I feel very human.
Well that's it for now. Till next time!
Credit - All content in this post has been created by and belongs to me. Banner created using Adobe Express mobile app