Throughout my entire life, whatever I have cherished, been proud of, and been good at has faded away. It's like whatever I touch with my hands gets cast with evil eyes. Hell yeah, whether it's my study, family, partner, materials, money, or anything that I was/am comfortable with, it gets to meet the evil eyes and soon faces backlashes. Maybe money gets ruined, materials get vanished(damaged/sold in a worse situation), loved ones get sick, and comfort zones are taken away. Now, I live in fear of what's next, as I'm already vulnerable at its peak, so any more damage is gonna tear me up into pieces.
Lemme tell you a story about one of the most precious materials of mine, which I had accumulated with my own ability, was a dream come true thing for me. On an occasion, I showcased this on social media, and I even posted stories with that frequently. That was my gaming rig, my pc setup that I had built with a huge sum of money that I had accumulated day by day. And guess what, I had to sell that setup by disabling the parts one by one. Yeah, 2024 and 2025 such the worst financial years for me that I had even sold my PC. Like took the GPU out, sold it, and got a hefty amount of money and solved a problem, another problem, and sold another part, and like that, I got nothing, not even a trace that I had that thing.
Trust me, it was so dear to me, I still remember those sleepless good nights. Life was so beautiful back then and now, completely messy! This picture is from the very first days. I really wish life could be like those days. Life was damn good, not just for me, but for my family as well. Now? Scattered!
Yeah, maybe people were envious of my good days; I was living the life that most of the boys dream of. A good money flow, gaming rigs, positive attitudes, and what now? Day by day started to lose all of them. Money, materials, attitude, respect, comfort, peace, stability, family, and whatnot! Everything I was satisfied with, fond of, each and everything got faded away, literally every single thing.
Now? After the long, hectic journey, things started to get better, a positive wind. Come on, it creates fear as good things come with bad outcomes in the future, take that away, and matches the equation. To be honest, I'm not celebrating anything, not being blind with happiness, I'm just grateful to the Almighty for listening to my prayers and making it easier little by little. Now I'm not gonna shout these on the mass, showcase or get crazy to share. Even I'm trying to feel less than I should for stuff. Things are getting better, and I'm like, "Okay, it's all by the grace of The Almighty, let's hope for the best in the coming days and stay as I am."
Yeah, whenever I get crazy or reckless with stuff, I feel like I get smashed in reality in the next moment. Now I'm always living like a disaster is coming and the good things I got might go away in the blink of an eye. And I'm living like that. Because I know, the moment I am happy with that, it will fade away. All I do now is keep faith in the Almighty that whatever happens, good or bad, He is the person behind all, if He is taking away stuff from me, then He is gonna give them back, one else.
So yeah, that's how life goes, perhaps. So be happy, don't show up, or get excited too much with stuff. And keep things within yourself as much as possible because good things are prone to being cast by evil eyes.