Shame transforms when you learn from it

Food for thought; like who prepared it for it to be ready to be consumed by the mind or maybe it's eaten uncooked as it comes? Metaphors are so intriguing when they're said out loud, they bring life to punch lines. In 2013 a self discovery was made, this individual behind the phone keyboard typing could rap and write poems. Upon that happening words flowing like a river flooded my thought line. With joy in me my right hand reached out for a pen and paper then the magic begun. My first piece was all about word play, getting words that could rhyme and attach a message to them.
The electrifying thing was me finding out the deposits of the potential I had. Time came to showcase this aptitude and it was at a church my aunt used to flock at. Some youths prearranged a talents search my name was added to the list of participants. This made me preparing day and night reciting one of my poems for the occasion. During my preparation one thing was an hindrance; the fear of standing in front of people. As I rehearsed this feeling really overwhelmed me, my concentration levels went low. The questions that begun to run in my head, were am I going to stand the crowd or am I going to finish reciting my poem? With these question giving up was an option at my door step. Nonetheless the phobia kind of disappeared, though it was hanging in there.
Finally the day came and my name was on the number one spot to showcase. My heart was racing like no mans business; sweat was dripping on my face all anxious. To avert the humiliation of appearing shaky on stage I told the moderator to put a mic stand for me to avoid holding it in my hands. Stand on the stage suddenly my body begun to shudder. I started reciting my poem with my voice sounding shaky in that moment shame was on me. In spite of that towards the end of my recital I gained some courage and ended it well. Since then boldness in public speaking has become part of me, though am not good at it but am able to stand before multitudes. Through this experience challenging my fears is something that I do.