Tough life

It's been two years since I left my life time favorite company. There's some reasons behind the change of employer, partly because of office politics, other than that it was my stubbornness and childishness, thinking I am capable of getting a ranking promotion despite the managers keep resigning. I thought, one find day, I will be able to earn a promotion once the manager left the company.

Well, it doesn't work that way. When the top management changes, the new guy will usually bring their own managers in, so they can keep their empire continue to function with their own army. Naturally, we the peon will be continue to work hard and serve the masters. That took me 9 wonderful years to realize, there's no way the company can reserve me a seat when the manager leave the company.

I was so fed up with the work getting tougher by the years, and worst when it comes to yearly performance review, my KPI will always be reviewed by a new guy, and the new guy will always tells me stay with the company long enough, once he sees some improvement, he will definitely recommend me for a promotion. Well, as you may have guessed, before next KPI review, the manager resigned, and I will be interviewed by the new guy again, and the new guy will repeat the same shit for me, please have patience with the company.

Anyway, those were the rant I did in 2023, I even got myself a brand spanking new hire and drive license. I have been preparing to go drive a Grab or Taxi as I do not wish to continue to shorten my life by anticipating shit from the job and the toxic culture. And then, it feels like an angel gave me a call, one of the many managers who left the company called me, ask me if I needed a new job and wanted the promotion bad enough, so he can recommend me to a new company, I should be able to get better pay and secure a manager title.

Fast forward, I don't love the new company. I went because of 2 things, one being me wanted a new working environment. The other thing is, the manager who recommend me the job, is a close friend of the new job's manager. Since I respect the ex-colleague, I also respect the new manager he introduced me. We fought for our lives back in the days, after I have resigned from my 9 years job. Never would I imagine, after got out from the 9 years job, I landed myself in a landmine field. The new job was so tough that the entire department already resigned, left me sitting there trying to fix the situation.

Well, that's what a manager do. Manage. Since I don't have staff, I then started to manage the business. I sorted out all those less profitable clients, gave them a stack of insurance reference material, so they know how to function. Followed by the "software" upgrades with the clients, teach them product knowledge, and then came the next steps is to filter and manage business. Client doesn't know what risk can do and what not. So, I will prioritize higher hit rate cases, whilst keeping the smaller fishes interested in submitting their proposals.

Just before I thought, I may have a stable life, then I had an offer to change employer again. Besr part of all, I am getting another pay raise. I guess, I never really think about the future. I knew the new job isn't easy, it will be so much easier where the input is a fixed numbers I only need to manage the output. Now that when I'm looking back, I should have just pick an easier job.

I am currently facing the most devastating situation in my entire working career. If this things doesn't solve, there's a chance that I may be facing disciplinary action. i knows this two years is already a surplus. I could have just resigned and drive Grab. But I think, I will stick to the plan, continue with the horrible job, get my salary can grind it through.