Marriage is very difficult no matter what, but then factor in a busy schedule and money and things usually fall apart. Celebrity marriages rarely last more than a few years.
Even for a non celebrity you find women only looking for a way to fund their lifestyle which is beyond their means. Don't get me wrong, I think the majority woman aren't like that. But once burned by one of these women as was I and you become paranoid.
I won't marry again, I wouldn't mind having a woman partner but why get married? Actors Kurt Russell and Goldie Hawn never married and have been together for more than forty years...
If you do choose to marry and have any wealth, you need a prenuptial agreement to protect your wealth. Marriage is hard and much more than half fail in the first two years!
"Most" I believe are the larger population and I think many of them are like this except the few that are different and probably godly.
I'm an advocate for marriage, it's saddening how a lot of people have made marriage (which was supposed to be beautiful) a living hell.
According to my faith, we're not supposed to not choose marriage, because that's God's ordination.
I'm sorry for what you went through, it's a very hard thing to experience and I think you wouldn't want to marry.
Being a person with a chronic illness, I've discovered a lot and to be honest, you discovered a lot being disadvantaged before being married.
I hope it all gets better because people are mostly in it for the money