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They will say that my favorite hobby is to leave HIVE aside and then come back with some excuses under my arm hahaha I apologize, but until today I have not found the balance I need to stay active in each of my activities and, although I want to hide it, studying medicine is one of the most absorbing things I have come across and unfortunately today I come with bad news: I failed an important subject.
Hace 6 semestres comencĂ© esta gran aventura llamada estudiar medicina en la Universidad De Oriente, nĂşcleo Anzoátegui en Venezuela y aunque al principio todos sabĂamos que serĂa bastante difĂcil porque tuve que mudarme de ciudad, adaptarme a un nuevo sitio y adaptarme a la vida universitaria sin nadie conocido cerca de mĂ, nunca perdĂ la motivaciĂłn y mucho menos las ganas de seguir adelante, no les mentirĂ© diciendo que es la primera asignatura que repruebo porque justo en el primer semestre reprobĂ© matemáticas pero no significo un atraso en la carrera puesto que es una materia que podĂa ver de nuevo mientras veĂa todas las materias del prĂłximo semestre, asĂ que aunque era la primera que me pasaba algo asĂ ya que yo siempre pertenecĂ a el grupo de buenas notas y cuadros de honor, decidĂ que no seria una derrota, que eso solo significaba que tenia que hacer las cosas un poco mejor y que quizá me habĂa afectado tantos cambios (ese semestre me costo bastante porque me sentĂa incomoda en el sitio donde me quedaba, lo cual me llevo a viajar cada fin de semana a mi casa lo que me cansaba bastante y me quitaba mucho tiempo Ăştil). Lamentablemente este no es el caso y no podre ver 2 materias importantes del siguiente semestre mientras veo MicrobiologĂa de nuevo (asignatura que reprobĂ©), cuando choque con la realidad de que me atrasare por esta materia, es decir no me podre graduar cuando pensaba y mucho menos con todas las personas con las que comencĂ©, fue un golpe duro, muy duro, principalmente porque me esforcĂ© mucho porque esto no pasara y sacrifique muchos aspectos de mi vida (en casos hasta mi salud) para aprobar pero aun asĂ no fue suficiente.
6 semesters ago I started this great adventure called studying medicine at the Universidad De Oriente, Anzoátegui in Venezuela and although at the beginning we all knew it would be quite difficult because I had to move to a new city, adapt to a new place and adapt to university life with no one I knew near me, I never lost motivation and much less the desire to move forward, I will not lie to you saying that it is the first subject that I failed because just in the first semester I failed mathematics but it did not mean a delay in the career since it is a subject that I could see again while I saw all the subjects of the next semester, So even though it was the first time that something like that happened to me since I always belonged to the group of good grades and honor rolls, I decided that it would not be a defeat, that it only meant that I had to do things a little better and that maybe I had been affected by so many changes (that semester it cost me a lot because I felt uncomfortable in the place where I stayed, which led me to travel every weekend to my house which made me very tired and took away a lot of useful time). Unfortunately this is not the case and I will not be able to see 2 important subjects of the next semester while I see Microbiology again (subject that I failed), when I collided with the reality that I will be late for this subject, that is I will not be able to graduate when I thought and much less with all the people with whom I started, it was a hard blow, very hard, mainly because I tried hard because this did not happen and sacrificed many aspects of my life (in cases even my health) to pass but even so it was not enough.
Recuerdo que hace 3 semestres me comentaron que esta seria una materia bastante sencilla y que no se necesitaba estudiar mucho para aprobar y que las evaluaciones siempre eran parciales de selecciĂłn, pero luego pasamos por pandemia y supongo que allĂ las cosas cambiaron pero no para todos porque las personas que vieron dicha materia el semestre pasado de manera online aprobaron con excelentes notas a pesar de que a diferencia las evaluaciones fueron exámenes de desarrollo eran en grupo de 30 personas jajajajajaja, cuando comenzĂł este semestre la profesora comento que “las condiciones no estaban dadas para clases presenciales semanales” teniendo en cuenta que este semestre yo vi VARIAS materias completamente presenciales. Pero bueno, era obvio que no querĂa hacerlo asĂ y sus “clases” consistĂan en enviar documentos por el grupo de WhatsApp 2 o 3 veces a la semana, sin ningĂşn tipo de explicaciĂłn ni respuesta a preguntas, el primer problema comenzĂł cuando al anunciar la fecha del primer parcial nos informĂł que este serĂa PRESENCIAL, INDIVIDUAL Y DE DESARROLLO, entre en shock desde el segundo 1, trate de estudiar pero los temas de este primer parcial eran bastante densos para autoexplicarmelos y como se podrán imaginar, no me fue bien en la evaluaciĂłn pero no fui la Ăşnica ya que el 70% de los estudiantes reprobaron el mismo examen y aunque hay ciertas normas que indican que cuando más del 60% reprueba, se debe repetir la prueba… la profesora no accediĂł, simplemente no se pronuncio respecto a eso y absolutamente nadie dijo nada más. En ese punto entendĂ que no le interesaba enseñar o ayudarnos como estudiantes, inclusive lleguĂ© a sentir que le gustaba reprobar alumnos jajaja.
I remember that 3 semesters ago I was told that this would be a fairly simple subject and that it was not necessary to study hard to pass and that the evaluations were always partial selection, but then we went through pandemic and I guess things changed there but not for everyone because the people who saw this subject last semester online passed with excellent grades even though unlike the evaluations were developmental exams were in a group of 30 people hahahahahahahahaha, when this semester began the teacher commented that "the conditions were not given for weekly face-to-face classes" considering that this semester I saw SEVERAL subjects completely face-to-face. But well, it was obvious that she did not want to do it that way and her "classes" consisted of sending documents by WhatsApp group 2 or 3 times a week, without any explanation or answer to questions, the first problem began when she announced the date of the first partial informed us that this would be PRESENT, INDIVIDUAL AND DEVELOPMENT, I went into shock from the second 1, I tried to study but the topics of this first partial were quite dense to self-explain them and as you can imagine, I did not do well in the evaluation but I was not the only one since 70% of the students failed the same exam and although there are certain rules that indicate that when more than 60% fails, the test must be repeated ... the teacher did not agree, she simply did not accept it. the teacher did not agree, she simply did not say anything about it and absolutely no one said anything else. At that point I understood that she was not interested in teaching or helping us as students, I even felt that she liked to fail students hahaha.
Pero fue justo ahĂ donde me di cuenta de que tenĂa que ponerle mucho más a esta materia que a las demás y eso hice, estudiĂ© muchĂsimo porque necesitaba notas muy altas para aprobar y de verdad amigos, le puse mi corazĂłn y aunque si aprobĂ© los exámenes siguientes, no con las notas altas que necesitaba para aprobar y sin más, me incluyeron en la lista de quienes debĂan reparar la materia y Ă©ramos aproximada 40 personas de 80 que estaban viendo la materia jajajaja, solo tenia 3 dĂas para estudiar y aunque en muchos momentos me desanime mucho, siempre mantenĂa mi fe para seguir adelante. El gran dĂa llego y con ella, muchos malestares porque a yo siempre he sido una persona nerviosa a la que atacan de las maneras más inimaginables y despuĂ©s de tantos dĂas de estrĂ©s mi cuerpo no lo soportaba, tenia cĂłlicos, dolores en los brazos y ha pasado una semana en la que aun cargo dolores de cabeza.
But it was right there where I realized that I had to put much more to this subject than the others and that's what I did, I studied a lot because I needed very high grades to pass and really friends, I put my heart and although I passed the following exams, not with the high grades I needed to pass and just like that, I was included in the list of those who had to repair the subject and we were approximately 40 people of 80 who were watching the subject hahaha, I only had 3 days to study and although in many moments I was very discouraged, I always kept my faith to move forward. The big day came and with it, many discomforts because I have always been a nervous person who is attacked in the most unimaginable ways and after so many days of stress my body could not stand it, I had cramps, pains in my arms and it has been a week in which I still have headaches.
A pesar de que yo confiaba en mis conocimientos, estaba muy asustada por lo que podĂa pasar ya que en esos 3 dĂas no me dio chance de estudiar cada detalle de los extensos temas y me centre en las cosas importantes que la profesora habĂa hecho Ă©nfasis durante el semestre…. ¡Sorpresa, sorpresa! Al entrar al salĂłn lo primero que nos dijo fue que el examen serĂa de selecciĂłn y ahĂ temblĂ© de miedo porque sabia que las cosas podrĂan salir mal. Mi instinto no mintiĂł y cuando volteĂ© el examen, me dieron unas inmensas ganas de llorar, puesto que ahĂ no habĂa nada reflejado de lo que yo habĂa estudiado y MENOS de lo que aquella profesora habĂa hecho Ă©nfasis, sentĂ mi pulso acelerarse y mi vista nublarse, como pude respondĂ las 25 preguntas y luego de releerlas, entreguĂ© mi examen. La profesora dijo que esperáramos porque darĂa las notas definitivas al final, eso hicimos todos, esperamos y solo puedo decir: reprobĂ©.
Although I was confident in my knowledge, I was very scared of what could happen because in those 3 days I didn't have a chance to study every detail of the extensive topics and I focused on the important things that the teacher had emphasized during the semester .... Surprise, surprise! When we entered the classroom the first thing she told us was that the exam would be a selection test and I trembled with fear because I knew that things could go wrong. My instinct did not lie and when I turned the exam over, I felt like crying, since there was nothing there that reflected what I had studied and even LESS what that teacher had emphasized, I felt my pulse quicken and my eyesight blurred, as I could I answered the 25 questions and after rereading them, I handed in my exam. The teacher said to wait because she would give the final grades at the end, that's what we all did, we waited and I can only say: I failed.
ReprobĂ© con exactamente la misma nota que fui a reparaciĂłn y eso solo me hizo entender una cosa: La voluntad de Dios, a veces nos enfrascamos en evitar lo inevitable, lo damos todo sin pensar en si realmente es asĂ como deben pasar las cosas, trate de hacer este post lo mas corto que pude pero les juro que no se como reprimir todo el sentimiento que llevo dentro, me ha costado muchĂsimo entender la voluntad de Dios, pero puedo decir que lo intente todo hasta el final, no me rendi y no deje que me ahogara la situaciĂłn, opino que a pesar de todas las adversidades que atravesĂ© supe sobrellevar esta realidad. Durante todo el proceso ore mucho, porque soy una persona bastante creyente y recuerdo pedir ayuda y sabidurĂa para afrontar mi situaciĂłn pero que si a pesar de todo, no lo lograba yo entenderĂa su voluntad y mi destino. Hoy soy la prueba de que muchas veces nos podemos esforzar mucho en cosas que no pasaran o al menos no en ese momento, pero que no debemos renunciar, solo levantarnos y volverlo a intentar.
I failed with exactly the same grade that I went to repair and that only made me understand one thing: God's will, sometimes we get caught up in avoiding the inevitable, we give everything without thinking about whether this is really how things should happen, I tried to make this post as short as I could but I swear I do not know how to repress all the feeling I have inside, it has cost me a lot to understand God's will, but I can say that I tried everything to the end, I did not give up and I did not let the situation drown me, I think that despite all the adversities I went through I knew how to cope with this reality. During the whole process I prayed a lot, because I am a very believing person and I remember asking for help and wisdom to face my situation but that if in spite of everything, I did not succeed I would understand his will and my destiny. Today I am the proof that many times we can try hard in things that will not happen or at least not at that moment, but that we should not give up, just get up and try again.
Thank you for taking the time to read my feelings, thoughts and allowing me to open my heart to you, you are part of me.
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