The fan looks so sweet,
to end this,
to end this sufferings.
I wanna be with you,
my one and only,
but you're too busy,
cant be my refuge.
Finished my bottles,
smokes are gone too,
no more pills,
but this emptiness,
nothing fulfills it.
I wanna hang,
wanna jump,
wanna drown,
wanna love again.
But you are too busy,
with your problems,
no place for me.
I wanna dump all these feelings
on another,
but they are not responsible,
For my problems.
Even if I cry
an ocean
does it matter?
it is not,
never enough.
because I am
a liar,
a cheater ,
I don't
matter
not any anymore,
Crying out loud
for your help,
for your presence,
but you wont
you wont forgive
I am a demon
I know
I can be better
but you wont,
you wont let me.
Cause your ego
matter more
more then me.
I am not
not your king
anymore.
I cant take it anymore,
Wanna be me
like I was before,
before your love
changed me.
I hate this world,
but I want to be
within it,
with you,
only you,
but
you are too busy
with your sorrow,
with your life,
with your headaches.
You were my bestfriend
and my lover.
but not anymore.
And I cant
love anyone,
anymore.
The fan looks so sweet
Just need a rope
To escape
This hellhole.
Do not escape yet. Stay a bit. Love will wander lost on the sea shore of your life, into your room & the fan will fan the flames of your soul once again. Amin
Such beautiful words. Thank you
Damn, this is all too relatable. I've been at the end of that rope, literally. Twice actually. It was a strong gag reflex that snapped me out of it the first time. The second time I pushed past my gagging but realized the song stuck in my head was too stupid to end with. Honestly no song is good enough to end with. Especially by your own hands. I won't lie and say life gets way better, but I will say it's worth living, even the hellish parts. Don't seek that escape, keep pushing through.
"song stuck in my head was too stupid to end with" - I can relate to this and laughed when I read this line. Thanks man for your kind words.