I wish I could tell you what's going on inside my mind. Even I as a person cannot believe what I am now. I used to be a very strong person who used to share her world with everyone and also showed the beautiful moments in life. I don't know if you noticed that or not; I stopped making videos though I live in a beautiful country where so much to share. I just don't find that motivation to share. Besides my aggression and my dark thoughts and desire pushing me towards depression and my PTSD, well I don't know how all these happened...

I really hope that one day once again I will start sharing my world with everyone...

Thanks for sharing that beautiful sunflower field with me, one of the best memory of my life...

My youtube is dead already, I don't know when the last time I opened my camera for filming...

Thanks @offgridlife