I understand your need, some of us just have to connect with the planet in that way, see broad horizons, hear the planet speak through nature. I understand, and I hope you get to do it soon.

Just on the, million miles away from anything* comment, I've done that, a lot actually, and there's a deep sense of self to be found in doing so. I often liken it to feeling like the only person on the planet. Australia is so vast that it's an easy thing to do generally although I've done it elsewhere also. It's an amazing feeling.

I hope you get out of the city soon; it sounds well-needed.