“I wish I had the ability to change…” my indiscipline.

I am a person who celebrates each of my achievements, I am proud of how I have managed my life and the results obtained, however, indiscipline has accompanied me in these long years and has been a reason for delay to move forward every day.

I am sure that if I were a disciplined woman, the story would be different.

I admire disciplined people, who do not get distracted from their goal and when they achieve it, they quickly set another one. Good ambition, no conformism, no laziness.

In my case, I repeat day after day the need to create habits, although there are some that I fulfill them by obligation or commitment, there are others that would bring me great benefits and I can not adapt them to my daily routine, much less, see them as a lifestyle.

To give you an example, I will start by mentioning that I have repeatedly proposed to learn the English language and to date I have not achieved it. For some reason, I drop out of classes and then I realize that what I have learned in that given time, my brain erases it due to lack of practice.

Another pathetic case goes with my lack of discipline to lead a healthy lifestyle. Because I am not talking about diets, but about nourishing the body with healthy food. I know the consequences of eating disorders and I have always suffered from being overweight. At times, I manage to get myself on track until I lie to myself saying...once a year doesn't hurt, to justify buying or consuming too much candy, for example.

A healthy lifestyle goes hand in hand with exercising and despite having been part of a gym group, the work schedule led me to quit. Then I couldn't figure out how to incorporate it into my life...to this day I'm still looking for a way to do it.

I love intelligent and cultured people, I admire my husband for his varied repertoire when we engage in conversation. I am enraptured by all that he knows because of his passion for reading. Despite my efforts to double the time I dedicate to books, social networks, although I am not a fan of them, distract me, as do certain television programs.

I also tell you that almost 4 years ago I quit what was my last office job, since then I have more time for home and for me. Every time I remember or read an article related to discipline and daily routine, I think of waking up earlier and start the day with a rich meditation, then add a little exercise and then take a shower, prepare breakfast and start what is now my workday.

So far if I do one activity, then I don't do the other. I also change schedules and so on until I don't do anything beneficial before I get to the computer.

I am aware of the importance of being disciplined and how it influences in a positive way to achieve success in life. I am not complaining about what I have, but I could be better if I focused and became a disciplined woman, instead of abandon.

I start, I quit, I start again, I quit again and so I go.....

This is my entry for week #152 for the weekend commitment.

I say goodbye wishing you good vibes 💞

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