I loved travelling. I loved knowing the other cultures deeply. I loved herbs and making remedies and cosmetics out of them. Loved finding the ability to heal, in deeper ways than medicine can. I loved art and expression through it. Loved dancing, even though I have never started being even decent at it until recently. I loved working with other people all over the world, towards common goals & causes. I loved deeply exploring things beneath the surface. Things that only a few were acknowledging or caring about.
Never stopped loving them. But at some point started "forgetting" them in my every day life, because I started feeling like I didn't deserve the right to do them, as I haven't found my productive place in this world yet. Never found a way to make enough money, so that I get to deserve to do things that are not in the sphere of "survive first", but mostly in the realm of "privileges", "luxuries" and "head in the clouds" / "not realistic".
Well, I was right on the one half part of it.
All these are (most of the times) unrealistic if you don't have a way to support them on your own. I was wrong on the part that I don't deserve them, which came along for the ride due to feelings of rejection in many and major parts of my life, in conjunction with my personal & my psyche's needs. So I kept moving in life, finding my way(s) and searching for what could give me the ability to afford supporting my "head in the clouds" needs.
But I was suppressing - "forgetting" them.
And now I started remembering.
They are all coming in streams back to me.
I don't feel anymore the notion that I have to do something in particular in order to deserve them. I know that I just have to remember & consistently feel into them. Find my own flow, feel my own energy & personal rhythm, respect it, tune in with and respect also those of the people around me, keep taking action(s) and it all falls into place.
Sharing a picture of one of those that I started reclaiming in my life! Aerial dancing, moving with grace, expressing the inner with femininity!
Very very soon I will start writing about my challenges on it, because I have finally found the reasons behind their existence and I would absolutely love it if I could contribute in other people finding their own and overcoming them too!
Later on, I'll start sharing my challenges & the way to overcoming them in other aspects of life too, as well as parts of my journey(s)!
There's a New Moon today and the last New Moon of 2023 as well! I am welcoming all of you to reflect in your psyche and self and, if you feel the need, to make it a point of new starts towards your "head in the clouds" needs too!
Do you remember who you are?
Have you ever forgotten it?
I would love to acknowledge you and share with you in the comments!
Much love to everyone! 🌞🧡
