I'm sorry that you took Amber's help as a criticism of you. She is a very very kind person and perhaps you have felt some need to defend yourself. I didn't see any accusation in her comment, but clearly you did. I'm sure that its difficult to first come into a place where you don't know anyone, and then feel like you have to prove something. But I can assure you- I've known Amber for more than 2 years, and she is always extending herself for others when she has very little time for herself. I hope that you do find a community that will make you feel comfortable and at ease, and have peace ❤️