Wow, seems like you’ve been through a lot. It’s interesting, I’ve been working on a song with a very similar theme right now, about a character standing at a ledge ready to jump but who turns away.
Have you heard of internal family systems? I feel like you will really enjoy it…I don’t know if enjoy is the right word but appreciate
Sorry I forgot to answer and yeh this is just a small part of everything. And no I haven't but I will look it up! ❤️