Hi, my dear friends!
As I already wrote, depression finished me off and I decided to seek help from a doctor. Not too much fun, but unfortunately necessary.
It's been a week and a half since I started taking antidepressants and medications to reduce anxiety. I'm lucky to have almost no side effect from these medicines, as it often happens. I became a little calmer and I began to sleep better. If I used to wake up almost every hour, now it's only a couple of times a night. I hope it will be better next.
The most unpleasant thing in this whole story is that I constantly feel weak. I'd like to take care of my garden and my house, but I don't have the strength to do anything. Any attempt at physical activity ends with an attack of tachycardia. All this is very unpleasant. By nature, I am an active person who likes to do different things, but instead I have to sit and rest after a hundred meters walk.
Even just going out into the garden with a camera was a real feat for me. My cardiologist is also trying to find the cause of my condition. She wrote me a whole bunch of tests... I look at these papers and think: okay, it's all fine, but I just don't have the strength to do it all!
It must have turned out to be a not too fun post. But it's also part of my life. I usually try to write about something positive. But sometimes I'm overtaken by despair, too. I feel very lonely in this fight. Of course, my friends come and help me. But I really want to lead a more active life, to do more. I dream of traveling. I hope that the doctor will find the cause of my condition and we can improve it.
Greetings @torem-di-torem ,
These are a most lovely set of photographs of these Perfect-shade-of-Pink fleurs....thank you for bring them to Hive.
Sorry to hear you are feeling poorly...without energy..yet getting some sleep..which is helpful to be sure.
If I were going through something like this I would want God at my side and He is when we have said 'Yes' to His plan for our lives. We start by believing in Christ Jesus for salvation...The Bible assures us in John 3.16...For God so loved the world (mankind) that He sent His uniquely born Son so that anyone who believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. and in Ephesians2.8,9...for by Grace are you saved and that not of yourselves...it is a gift of God...lest anyone should boast.
Here's hoping the very best for you...God's best.
Cheers!
I hope things get better soon!
depression is more common that most ppl imagine and often passed unnoticed