According to my experienced and what i have witnessed this day, manifestation is real, so is magic and we are indeed creators of our reality.
However, there are limits and boundaries that people practicing metaphysics sometimes want to ignore. There are karmic laws that should be respected to the best of our capacity if we aim to establish patterns of harmony, good relationships, and the capacity to actually enjoy what we create.
In my last post i wrote about some kind of energy, whether inmaterial or human that sent "misfortune" my way. I was, as you can imagine, wrong about this. But i am positively certain that my energetic field was being invaded by energies i did not want to experience, because despite all my efforts of protection (meditation, affirmations, music, self-care) they kept trying to barge in at all costs.
Now i understand what was happening. I was experiencing a relationship with completely different levels of intensity. I took it very lightly and the other person was putting a lot of energy into it. I would see this person for a day or two and then move on with my life without any sort of attachment and that person would remain interested in manifesting experiences with me, as well as following my blog posts with an interest that made me feel a bit stalked.
No one here was having any ill wishes towards the other, but the energetic interaction was having an enormous dissonance because there wasn't energetic consent to what was going on.
My dear friend, whom I'm sorry to have hurt, but at the same time happy to take some distance from and relieved to not feel her energy all over me, has the notion that there are no rules. That whatever you desire you can get, no need to worry about anything else. This idea, to my current understanding is what gives birth to chaos magic, which i must confess i have practiced for quite some time, and been doing very dedicated work to move away from.
Chaos magic works, it is quick and effective, but it has many flaws. Just as there are no rules for manifesting, the manifestations end up being lawless as well, often inciting chaotic circumstances and turning that what you desired into something unpredictable and fickle.
For example, you can manifest sex with someone you like. All good, chaos magic will provide the experience, but it will not provide intimacy and therefore the sex will be lacking, unfulfilling, and might even leave you with some dark energies impregnated onto your subtle bodies.
Why won't it provide intimacy? Because that requires deep comunication and a desire that is born from both parties, not a unliateral manifestation. Intimacy is only born when all the involved people are willing to open their hearts, which is where the metaphysical power of another will find their limits, for we can't control another person's heart no matter how hard we try.
I move right now in the direction of order, which actually has a lot less manifesting outwardly and a lot more inwardly. I no longer wish to be granted free external sources of well-being, i wish to embody well-being and be a source of it to the world. This is not a path for those who will not embrace effort and sacrifice, as these are the roots from where the tree of stable, predictable, and sovereign abundance may grow.
My friend would treat me as if i was stupid and not knowledgeable of the laws of metaphysics for not wanting to manifest an "improved" life experience immediately. I begin to avoid arguing back after some time because each time i did that would just trigger very long speeches from her that were extremely tiresome. However, my reasons for not rushing into a different reality so rashly have a solid foundation that has been building through years of quantum jumping from one reality to another without ever being able to appreciate the big gift: the present.
Which is what it all comes down to. Right now that is my only work regarding the metaphysical realms: to work on appreciating the present and letting whatever gift comes to add harmony to it stay, and use the sword of reason to cut away whatever brings feelings of insatisfaction and anxiety.
