I also met a very interesting character, the manager of the community farm, name John. One day he confided in me a very interesting discovery. He had found a box of cassette tapes from an alternative past. **The tapes consisted of news reports from an alternative past, a past that no one else remembered.
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The idea intrigued me. *Could there really be alternative versions of history? *And from this intrigue was born a series of zines that I titled "History Changed"
Today I would like to share a couple of collage-poems from one of the early zines that I cobbled together while I was living & woofing in Mexico in a coastal community in Oaxaca. I am proud of how this short clip turned out (though sad I cannot share it via 3speak, I wonder when that will be back online?). So, here it is thanks to YouTube shorts:
These poems are strange looks into the jumble up thoughts of someone coming to terms with this world and also searching for a new reality. I collected, then collaged together, found words and phrases from books and newspapers. Sometimes I pieced together words from single letters clipped here and there. The combination of all these influences, along with the new life I was embarking on as a traveler, collated into an artistic mess that I look back on fondly.
Somehow I was able to express exactly what I needed to in that moment, to make sense of the deeply confusing world of being a 20-something girl, living outside her home country for the first time, traversing my first big heart break, and the immense task of deprogramming everything I had learned. History Changed was, in a way, more a metaphor for my own personal journey than revelations about the reality of our past.
Or, is it?
the jury is still out for me. i have friends who distinctly remember certain localities differently than they are and allegedly always have been.
i can only saw for sure that the subjective experience of being a kid was so remarkably different from the subjective experience now, it might as well be called a different lifetime.
It is interesting that you have contemplated this issue as well! I really cannot say and whenever I try to talk about alternative timelines with people I end up sounding crazy, or they think I am joking. So now I embrace the absurdity of it but, also am totally open to alternative timelines.
It is hard because half of my childhood was in the 90's and the other half in the early 2000's and, like you say, they were just totally different times! It seems like there was a shift around the turn of the century, and also it seems natural that there would be. Still, I like to keep all options open and keep space for magical and mysterious possibilities.
mhhhhm very well said.
it's good to know you are out there. to me it's crazy to pretend this place is boring and fully explained. it is much much much more mysterious, and it's a pleasure to meet people who also see it
blessings!
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