I bake chocolate cake and meditate. Drawers opening and closing, spices being taken out and put back in, some sugar spilled on the floor - lots of pluses and minuses in the recipe notebook and my head. How many times have I opened different but always beautiful notebooks and have written down goals for the day, week, month, year, life? How many times have I told the blog about my problems and not being able to go back?
It seemed like a plan put together would be the perfect solution. A masterful way to heal. Because those ten minutes spent hanging over a piece of paper were real therapy. Then I put the notebook aside and continued to sink into self-bite, counting my disadvantages and continued to distrust people. It was comforting that my perfect plans scrawled with the most sophisticated ballpoint pens were always sleeping vigilantly in the notebooks.
I imagine the number of people who have experienced this feeling is well over the millions. Those desperate flying dreamers who fall painfully to the ground without trying any ways to implement the plan. Only those who dream beautiful and nightmarish dreams, and in the morning, after making a plan, reading a motivational self-help book and drinking a cup of coffee without milk, they rush to meaningless work where they beat themselves up and promise themselves all day long that they will definitely send a few embellished CVs when they return. Go to the gym or run five kilometers, and in this way, manage life.
The trouble is that life is indeed tidy, even too much. We know what we have to do, when to start studying, when to finish, when to start work, when to go for a health check, when to rest, when to raise children. But sometimes you want to turn order into a terrible mess or chaos. As it is now quite fashionable to say - to take your drowning body out of the comfort zone, if you can call TV and social networks that way, and immerse yourself in an undiscovered swamp.
I read a quote by the famous lecturer Brian Tracy: "Happiness requires a serious goal." Successful people traveled purposefully and, apparently, none of them - without falling. However, after putting on their torn shoes, they continued walking. They were rubbing their heels, the asphalt was not smooth, rather it was insanely potholed. The bigger the goals, the more twists, rocks and sharp turns the roads have. But in a slightly romantic way, as if the alchemists from Paulo Coelho's novel they did not lose their goal in the long distance.
s very banal, but we draw all these boundaries in our heads. Unfortunately, it is often not a thin transparent line of strength of a cotton thread, but a hard coconut, provoking anger, aggression, dissatisfaction.
It is very difficult to be unflexible. It's hard not to allow yourself to easily give up and childishly change your mind. Agree with what you previously vehemently denied. It prevents the implementation of our plans, our change, our improvement, and self-evaluation. Almost all motivational books say that plan a, b, c, d and so on in the entire alphabet to the end - it's nothing shameful. It is even welcome! From the series that if you are not allowed through the door, you have to crawl towards the window... Change tactics. Go around from the west, if you failed from the north side. Flexibility is such a value!
Once you plan something, it seems to become easier immediately and sometimes it doesn't really matter if that plan will be implemented soon or just live for decades in the form of a dream. This is familiar to all people, but there are two types of people, those who carry out their plans diligently and on time, and those who plan to start their own business in five years. When there will be better circumstances, a more favorable time of the year, money will appear from somewhere, and generally everything will happen by itself. But it often starts and does not develop. Or the opposite happens. On the other hand, people who are too confident in fate are not inclined to plan much.
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