I AM A MAN WHO HAS WEAKNESS

Hi there, friends!

The concept of being a real man is rooted on being strong in decision making, physical strength, pain tolerance and responsibility. However, being a real man is still human. Our mindset can be detrimental to our masculinity development and hinder socialization. We bleed. We get hurt. We mourn. We feel weary. You all know our aggressiveness towards handling things. You know our voice. You know our views. However, you also know our emotions when it comes to you, women. You know our limits. We are viewed as weak when we have nothing achieved throughout our lives. Yes, we are supposed to be the leader the family, the provider, supporter and protector. We are assumed to take care of this world as per biblical. God has given us freedom to decide. What can I do? I have no power to rule, no riches, so it’s simple. I am imperfect just like anybody else, so I just embrace my weaknesses and go on.

Embracing one’s weakness is the primary step towards self-improvement. By welcoming doubts, failures, needs, and problems pushes us to understand natural order of things. When I face defeat along the way of my everyday living, I learn to adapt, improvise and overcome. Rather being discourage or worse suicide, I better talk to God, and be isolated for hours. Being in isolation improves my emotional intelligence, pressures, heaviness in heart and confusions in my head.

Now, I am 26 years old. I understand enough about myself. I haven’t live much my teenage life back then. A kind of teenager who enjoys his time as a teenager. Me? I have been growing through hardships. No time for wasting money or enjoying with peers. My parents trained me to strive for excellence. Yes, I am happy of my school days but not teenage life. I am full of childhood experiences but we are poor. I learn hard things. Things which my parents thought to be useful for me when I get old. And yes, they are not disappointed by me. I am happy of what I become. They have raise me to be responsible enough in life. But I am disappointed of myself. I have through unnecessary decisions. Fast-forwarding things out of jealousy and pride. Rushing thing which are not meant to happen yet of my life. I have committed mistakes against God, myself and others; and my family suffers on it. I am weak in my inner me. My body shakes. I can’t tell my parents about it. I kept it all myself. I can only shout it when I’m driving toward school and no people in sight. Music is my remedy. But here’s too my second weakness – voice and music. I don’t know how to play musical instruments. I have bad vocalization. No one to teach me. I have tried repeatedly but I just can’t learn to play it. Third, my eyesight. I am nearsighted. It was genetically inherited. So It is my weakness but not so much. Hehe! I'm used to this since elementary days. Sometimes I want to see something or someone from afar. I am only sorry because I can't clearly see them. Fourth, my ambition. I want to serve God by public service, by giving. But I have nothing to give. Honestly, I have committed illegal thing just to aid someone’s problem. For the best.

These are my weakness. This is me. No regrets at all. Just happy of my life anyway. Only God knows my purpose in this world.

Thank you, friends for reading till here. Come on have a drink with me. Cheers to life. Have a nice day everyone. Don’t forget to be nice with everyone.