Looking at myself in the mirror has become a routine for me. I don't always groom myself, but I'm comfortable with the way I look and how others perceive me. It's not that I'm extremely self-confident, but I don't feel insecure either. Sometimes when I look at myself in the mirror, it's not just about my physical appearance. I reflect on my actions and whether I'm doing things the right way or not. I've noticed that other people do this too, and I try to empathize with them to understand their perspectives.
I'm 23 years old, and many of my peers are still studying in college. Some of us advanced due to the new curriculum in the Philippines, while others had to complete Grades 11 and 12 before starting college. It's always a pleasant surprise to see familiar faces from high school in the university.
As I wait for my classes or appointments in the university gym, I see freshmen and sophomores engaging in childlike activities. While some people find it annoying, I smile at the sight of them playing and having fun. It reminds me of when I was in their shoes, still trying to figure things out and not feeling the pressure of a busy schedule.
I only have a small circle of friends, and I don't plan on making new ones as I know we will eventually go our separate ways. I've experienced losing a close friend, and it was difficult for me to move on. Being alone is peaceful for me, and I enjoy watching others go about their day while I sit on a bench or eat my lunch.
Reflecting on the past few months, I've realized that I've come a long way. After taking a two-year break, I enrolled in university again. Some of my peers couldn't keep up and dropped out, while others are still struggling. I understand that everyone has different responsibilities and circumstances. I'm grateful that I don't have many responsibilities right now, which allows me to focus on my studies.
Looking at myself in the mirror reminds me that I'm not perfect. I've hurt people with my words and actions, especially when I get anxious. I know I need to be more mindful of how I interact with others. However, I'm confident that I'm making the best decisions for myself within my day-to-day decisions.
I just needed to vent, and writing this down has given me a sense of relief. Thank you for listening.
Hi @eunoia101, your post has been upvoted by @bdcommunity courtesy of @rem-steem!
Support us by voting as a Hive Witness and/or by delegating HIVE POWER.
JOIN US ON
Good for you Eu, tuloy mo lang while you still can.
When you age, minsan you will enjoy the peace of being alone di naman sya ganun ka lonely as portrayed by the media but rather refreshing sya kasi you can reflect on stuff in life. I am more into being alone at times, sometimes I long for connects parin naman pero most likely friends online are doing better nowadays.
Thank you TP, very well said. Tyaka ano, subrang gastos kung may kasama ka haha feeling yayaman kasi yung iba aba ang mamahal ng binibili whahaha... Just that aral priority not to join them hehe.
The rewards earned on this comment will go directly to the people( @lanzjoseg ) sharing the post on Twitter as long as they are registered with @poshtoken. Sign up at https://hiveposh.com.
Buti ka pa nga at makasilip pa sa salamin eheheh Ako Wala talagang salamin, Meron sana kaming maliit na salamin before kaso nabasag pa hahaha ngayon Wala na hahaha.
Anyway keep going eu I know you can do it. Minsan sa life darating Ang point na parang Ang sarap bumalik sa Buhay Ng Bata na walang deadlines, walang responsibilities at walang stress hehehe.
Wonderful reflections! Naaka sakit din ako madalas, not insan ng mga tao, minsan sinsadya and minsan naman hindi. Ganun talaga eg, madadala tayo s emosyon. I hope youll have the patience and endurance to finish college