It's a Nightmare; I Really Thought I'd Die This Time! This is Too Sudden, But I Really Need Your Help.

When I saw the blood rushing down in my nose, fears take over my body. I get out on my bed and immediately tilt my head up but blood is just filling up my throat. Scared, I decided to just swallow it and with the thought too that I Might lost a lot of blood if I don't swallow all the blood that gushing from my nose through my throat. In my head, I don't want to lose more blood so I will just continue swallowing it.

My heart is beating so fast that time, a lot of morbid thought is running down my head. I though I can stop the bleeding on my own but when I feel that the blood is still flowing, I decided to call my Mom. They are all scared too because of what happened. Mommy D handed a cold water maybe to stop the bleeding but it didn't do much and I am still panicking. So we decided to go to the hospital, we can go to the nearby one but I doubt they can do something about this.

My mama run faster to the terminal, it's 9 pm already and she said after I was admitted to the hospital that it's a good thing that she found one tricycle. She also said that it is already the last one in the terminal so were really just lucky. I badly want to go to the hospital already so without preparing too much, and with just a jacket on and a little miney in our wallet, ee travel fast to where the Pinamalayan Doctor's Hospital.

The duration of the trip is like forever to me. The blood is not stopping from flowing. I already bled a lot and swallow a lot. And in the middle of the travel, I stopped swallowing the blood and let it all flow down. I vomited a lot of blood, there are big and whole chunk of blood too which made me feel more scared. I'm already weak that time, i feel that I am running out of breath too. I thought I will never survive that night.

I am praying to God to help me stop the bleeding and at the same time I am also like giving him my last will or something, i am like "Dear God, I'll leave my family to you if I didn't survive this." I'm trying to stay conscious but im losing more blood every second it is nerve racking and alarming.

But God is so good as we arrived in the hospital just in time. Even though in my weakest state, I still chose to act strong and get out on the trike on my own as I really really want to be admitted in the hospital already and let them stop the bleeding. When I saw all the nurses, I breath in relief as I know that I will be safe now.

I let them take care of me, they check my vitals and all and put a dextrose on me. they asked me too what happened and why it bled. I couldn't answer that time because I felt that my soul already left my body because of how worn out I was. So i just let mama answered all their question. I was covered in blood that time but thanks to the nurses for cleaning me up and removing all the blood on my body

The bleeding had finally stop. But i lost too much blood that they require me a blood transfusion. My blood pressure was 80 over 60 i think but my hemoglobin really go down, from 9 my hemoglobin went down to 8. And even though my blood pressure change and go up to 100 over 80, i still need a blood transfusion.

After one and half an hour of waiting, they finally bring me to the hospital room. They asked us if the room with the price of 1800php or $32.18 is okay with us. As if we had a choice, if thats the only room available eh ಥ‿ಥ. But they said that they will inform inform us if there's a cheaper one available later ಥ‿ಥ.

This is just a small drop from my nose that dropped in my jacket. It is already dry now. I also checked the the shirt that help me cover my nose and it is also full of blood. What if this continue, i will really die because of blood loss. ಥ_ಥ

Anyways, i really don't want to do this but i'll be hypocrite if i say i didn't need help. I badly need it right now for the hospital bills and medication and also for my fast recovery. Financial assistant is really needed and prayer too. I can just rely on my philhealth right now but im not sure if there is something left on that especially i used it last February 7 on my nasal polyp removal. But i hope i can still squeeze in some amount on it. Even a little is enough for me.

So, i'll be shameless now and take this chance to ask help in this platform. Small or big, or even a prayer is greatly appreciated. Salamat and thank you ❤️.

And here's my GCash account too ❤️.