This song actually reminds me of someone really close to me, she's like a big sister, my big aunty, her relationship really taught me a lot about love. The day I saw her crying over this guy I knew she really gave her all to him, she was emotionally drained. So yeah I feel this song for her.
She was in love with her childhood friend and as they grew up together, then puberty hit, and they began to date, he was the off and on kinda guy in the relationship, leaving when he wanted and coming back anytime he felt it was comfortable for him.
She was driven by the idea of love, she just wanted him, then he broke her, left without a word, no goodbyes, he was just gone. She got into college, 6 years passed and he was back again with the intention of marrying her, after all the begging and promises, of course my aunty was still in love with him so she said yes, she found out all the men dated while he was gone didn't have his qualities and when he came back begging she had to leave the relationship she was in for him.
She knew him in and out, so she thought it was easy to marry someone who knew her better than she knew herself, at least that's what she thought, he came back with all his red flags, leaving the relationship after little fights, and not committing fully, according to him his career was taking his time, he was a doctor by the way. He was the one who had put an engagement ring on her finger yet he didn't want to see her parents.
My aunty decided to finally break up with him, she's 36 now. She had spent so much time on this dude, which she regrets till today, did she love him of course, till today mentioning his name made her emotional.
So this song really reminded me of her. She loved him so much but she had to leave. This time she had to make up her mind and leave. Some men tend to forget that a woman has a biology-time phase, where marriage and kids are involved, for a man it's different because he can still find a woman even in 50s, not a woman.
I still saw my aunty’s flaw, she would have just moved on while she still had the chance, but not everyone is as strong hearted like that, he was her first in everything so I understand her from an emotional end, this was the man she wanted to spend the rest of her life, but he wasn't the right one for her.
I'm a person who loves love, I just want to be loved and cook my husband in the right proposition of love, I want to nurture his household with so much love and peace, I want all my kids to blossoms from this type of love, now imagine me wasting this energy on the wrong person, who's not even my husband, or worse marrying the wrong partner, imagine wasting so much time only to tell yourself at the end, I need to leave, let it all go. And funny enough the right person might come on the long run but the energy to nurture and love is gone.
So I'm not going to waste my energy in relationships that won't build me into a best wife, best friend, an excellent partner to my spouse and lastly the best loving mother there is, to my kids. If I can't get that. in Nigeria we say we move cause I'm out of there faster than flash himself.
I hope and pray for my aunt's heart to recover back the love she had given to her ex, I pray she see her self worth, and love herself harder than any man could love her, I pray a man who genuinely loves her will come and sweep her off her feet cause she really deserves to be treated like a queen, her heart is so beautiful and it's sickening she gave it to the wrong person.
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