Passion and Peace: Navigating a peaceful existence

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I never knew how tough it could be to run a business. I can't blame myself, though. All I knew was that I wanted to have control over my very existence. I don't want a life where I have to rush into the bathroom as early as 4 a.m., get my clothes ironed over the weekend, and rush out on the street so I can hop on the very first bus to avoid traffic.

That's a typical Monday for almost everyone around me. I think everyone seems to have adjusted to it and accepted it as their way of life. Maybe they found peace in it—I can't really tell. But I have some people complain about such existence.

Running a business is just quite different. I have my peace. I can sleep and wake whenever I feel like it. I give my resumption date, opening hours, and closing hours too. That was all I wanted. I never wanted anything close to stress or having it hard on myself.

I saw a pictorial expression of how it was when someone was about to start a business and when they were fully into it. Starting up would be so cool and refreshing. You get fewer worries in your mind since it is just the beginning. You will hope to have a good time running it in the long run. Only if wishes were horses then beggars would ride.

Running the business itself was different. The pictorial expression showed how scattered and tattered the hair became, how rough the clothes were, and how dusty the shoes turned out to be. I was so optimistic and pulled a different mindset that mine would be different.

Last week I got myself in a mess that tampered with my brain. Got me thinking so hard that I had to let go of my breakfast and lunch, skipped a lot of meals in between days, and also kept on spending without getting a result.

At that point, I wished I could start a Job as a 9-5 worker. Every day got me thinking about the loss I encountered. All my hopes running down the rail, nothing to tell at the end of it all.

It was the path I chose and I have no one to blame for that, I blamed myself. I felt like giving up. A whole week of my life yielded no results. Even when I try to sleep to avoid thinking and overthinking, I end up being restless.

I remember asking a friend to recommend a movie for me so I could watch it and feel relaxed. Maybe if I get to watch some comedy and laugh. I might be unchained from the restlessness I have been through and have peace even for a little period while I keep watching it.

It never worked out, the movie made no sense to me, I realized there should be a connection between the soul and the intended action. If not it would never work out.

Today is Monday. A new week to start all over again? I asked myself. No. But today I won't be rolling over that same energy from last week. I would try a different method. I would seek peace in my own way. I made another decision that would help me out.

To find inner peace, I have to stay far away from what has been troubling me over time. So waking up this morning, I didn’t even bother opening up my business place at all. I took my mind off it and had it like it never existed. However, I was reminded of it as I saw others preparing and going to work as early as possible. But this is the decision I made to have a peaceful mind.

The next thing I had to do was to go for a long walk. Exploring nature and humanity. Saw different people facing their own hustle despite the conditions and consequences. I guess they didn’t give up.

Some are up and active like I have been some weeks before, and some are closed down maybe temporarily or permanently. It was a choice they had to make like I did. Everyone with their share of problems.

The long walk went on for about two hours. Slowly taking my steps and observing. Then I got back home and took nature as my meditation. Crossed my legs while resting under the coconut tree, had my head and mind freely connected to each other, then took a quick nap while the fresh breeze kept slapping me into a new world.

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