I left home early, so I didn't see it as getting freedom, this meant that I already knew that life would be tough when I left and I expected it.
I'm glad that you're paying your bills and seeing how life is. Irrespective of the fact that it's difficult, I think it's a valuable life lesson and it'll eventually make you a stronger person.
Paying bills from family also can be difficult as well, I that that for many years and also other things too.
Inasmuch as it's difficult, and sometimes it's painful it can make you stronger..