Not again!

Expressing my current emotions is challenging, but it's essential to share. I find myself in a state of deep sadness and frustration at the moment. The source of this distress stems from an unfortunate incident that unfolded in the middle of last month. My primary means of communication, my phone suffered screen damage, and being financially strained, I found myself unable to afford to repair it immediately

After a short amount of days I spent phoneless, I was surprised when a good friend graciously lent me her old phone. This gesture was a lifeline, especially considering my role as a university student, where a phone is a crucial tool not just for communication but also for reading.

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But the unexpected happened as a day after receiving the borrowed phone, it, unfortunately, slipped from my grasp before I could secure a screen guard. Though the crack wasn't severe, the embarrassment was palpable, particularly because it wasn't my phone. To address this, I reached out to friends, seeking financial assistance to repair the phone. Fortunately, I was able to get enough money to repair it.

Regrettably, fate had different plans, yesterday morning, as I prepared to attend church around 6 am, the phone slipped from my hands once more, resulting in total screen damage as you can see in the picture below. Understandably, one might label me as careless (but was I really?). How the incident unfolded today took me by surprise and still am taking responsibility for whatever happened.

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Feeling a mix of sadness and frustration, I believe it's therapeutic to channel these emotions into writing. Perhaps writing about it would release the pent-up anger and frustration from the incident and provide momentary relief from the challenges life has thrown my way. After so much fear and bad feelings, I finally told the friend of mine who lent me her phone about what happened, and to my surprise, my friend didn't take it to heart and even consoled me about what happened. Truly, it was much relieving telling the truth even though it was hard.

I feel sharing this experience serves as an indication of the unpredictable nature of life. Even though I feel different as I am without a phone, perhaps there might be an iota of silver lining in it, even though for now I don't see anything but downsides and currently thinking about how badly I need a phone and the unlikeness that I can pay for the repair with my meager allowance as a student.