Traveling and all the calls and timezone hopping and stuff means I basically let a ton of comments here go without acknowledgement. But thank you, and yeah, exactly that.

For some people who watched shows or listened to streams, they had a small inkling of what was happening, but it's hard to decide which parts of a depressing struggle you share both for your own good, and the people whose story it is which may not be yours to tell. One of the toughest parts of facing and caregiving through prolonged illness is having others around you overwhelmed with the wish to help, and the extreme discomfort of proxy facing mortality through you when they wouldn't have had to yet otherwise. You lose a lot of friends and family who aren't able to take on the emotional overhead and you can't blame them for it. They want to help, you don't want to burden them, and everyone is just doing their best. I know that so, so many people around the platform are fighting the same types of battles, have lost their loves, or come through horrible times, and it's just.... Well, it just is.
The horrors persist, and so do we.

It's just a little piece of the bad few years jigsaw puzzle, but it's a hole that's not going to go away. And now that it's finally 'over', it's going to slowly become a channel to take a deep breathe and and re-center myself through. Lots of beautiful things, lots of good in the world, lots of work still to do, lots of fun and great accomplishments to be proud of. I know that it wasn't the central point of this post (or even a huge piece of it at all), but it's the one people are resonating with and taking away after reading, and I love you for that. In any case, it leaves me with the space and refreshed worldview on a lot of what I want to do, and also has given me the 'welp what's the worst that can happen now' mentality that will probably come in handy when I make a proposal at what may be the most contentious time in history next week 😂
Thanks for being you, and all the awesome stuff you do.