I’m Very Surprised!

My life has been emptied of color and comfort.  The first three days after My blessed and beloved feline died, I thought I would handle it well.  I guess I was still in shock.

But yesterday, and now today, I am emptied.  The place I am sheltering, on the floor of a friend’s apartment, was rather like home, with Missy Kitten being a bond between Us.  But now…  The mess*  (!), the reminders, and all, just leave Me feeling imprisoned.

I have no key, My truck likely sabotaged, My friend sad and prickly, and I want out.  For good.

Maybe ending all this mess I endure, the psychopath-run “politics,” the targeting to keep Me down, the shadow banning to keep My work unseen, the pacing back and forth to get what little exercise I can, the lack of sun…





Perhaps I would best join My beh beh girl.

Or perhaps there will be a savior in My life, someOne who helps Me get to a place where I can freely take walks, and keep clean – I make Felix Unger look like Oscar Madison…  (For Any unfamiliar with The Odd Couple, Felix was uber tidy and clean, and Oscar was a mega-slob.)

I will not hold My breath, though.

The only thing that has kept Me going has been the work I do for Humanity, and now, for all the pets whose owners can’t afford to get proper treatment for their ills.  If I had been able to have good treatment for Scruffy Muffin, she just might still be here with Me.

I keep asking Myself why I am choosing to depress, and the answer is quite clear, and asking if there is a better choice has thus far yielded Me nothing.  That strategy worked way back when as I was chronically depressed.  Have not chosen to depress for nigh 40 years.

And now, with the single light, the brightness and color in My life gone…





Not much point to going on that I can see.  I’m schlepping through the days, going through routine, with empty heart.  No color.  No life.  Just a distant but persistent determination to share awareness that We can obsolete money (in all forms) and live richly, all of Us.

We can solve for the moneyed psychopaths in control on Our planet.

I guess I will persist in this hell I am living, working for Humanity and Our beloved critters.  Maybe I will see that Reshare Rescue Army I have wanted for two and more decades, and People will become aware that They can withdraw consent from the psychopathic legal/governmafia system, that We can get free energy tech out in the open, that We can co-create vastly better than what We see now.

*  The mess…  My friend makes Oscar Madison look like Felix Unger.  I cannot clean up much because He does not want Me touching His stuff – He has germophobia and chemophobia and worries that My touch will convey something deadly.  This is another challenge that has become overwhelming for Me.

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As My regular readers know, I ask for no money as payment for My work for Humanity.  I ask for payment in shares.  Please, if You feel My work has value, share with ten or more People.  This will be the only way the information is spread.

Links to My work for Humanity:

Choosing to Depress  (article):  https://peakd.com/@amaterasusolar/choosing-to-depress

Abolition of Money  (article):  https://peakd.com/informationwar/@amaterasusolar/abolition-of-money

A Symbiosis of Humanity and Our Planet  (article):  https://peakd.com/informationwar/@amaterasusolar/a-symbiosis-of-humanity-and-our-planet

Find What You Love to Do that Helps the Most  (article):  https://peakd.com/truth/@amaterasusolar/find-what-you-love-to-do-that-helps-the-most

Do You Grasp that It’s Us Against Them?  (article):  https://peakd.com/truth/@amaterasusolar/do-you-grasp-that-its-us-against-them

The Lack of Ethics in Food Production  (article):  https://peakd.com/truth/@amaterasusolar/the-lack-of-ethics-in-food-production

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Endia – A Short Story by Amaterasu Solar
http://tapyoureit.boards.net/thread/260/endia

Quite the Opposite – A Short Story for Change – by Amaterasu Solar
http://tapyoureit.boards.net/thread/72/quite-opposite-short-story-change

The Abundance Paradigm – A Novella by Amaterasu Solar
http://tapyoureit.boards.net/thread/242/abundance-paradigm-novella

My father taught Me never to believe anything.  He told Me to place probabilities and adjust them as new data come along, asking the question, "Does that explain what I see?," when evaluating data.  He was an aerospace engineer, and worked with T Townsend Brown (see My featured vid on Odysee or YouToilet).  From a very early age I was concerned that the way I was told things worked, in terms of government and social affairs, did not explain what I saw.  So the first few decades I worked to determine WHY this was.

I wound up in banking, seeing the flow of things in the headquarters of a major bank in Los Angeles.  I became intimately familiar with the flow of money, and economics.  I asked the question, "Why do We use money?"

When the web arrived, My research capabilities flourished, and I learned much that explained what I saw, but the only explanations I found for why We use money started with trade and barter, which are still money in a direct form, and did not answer the WHY.  Then, I came upon the explanation that these were used because, with a finite amount of stuff, it was to ensure that We got Our "fair share" in a scarcity environment, in exchange for the work We added.

From this I realized the WHY.  We were accounting for Our energy input into things.  And that We needed to do this because the Human energy was scarce compared to what We needed to be produced (back then).

I also discovered that over half Our planet's wealth was "owned" by fewer than 100 Humans...

I was very interested in psychology, too.  And studied it deeply, being fascinated by psychopathy, focusing on that aberration, learning that They had discovered a gene that manifested Individuals who were incapable of love, compassion, caring, and empathy for Others – primary psychopaths.  Seeing that the wealth was so disproportionate, and that the families who "owned" it inbred, what would explain what I saw would be that They wanted to retain that psychopathic gene.  Given that the wealth could feed, clothe, house ALL of Us (and give Us freedom) abundantly and many times over, and yet None set forth to care for Humanity, I had to give probability approaching 100% that They are psychopaths, as that explains perfectly what I see, and answers My quest for why the way I was told things worked did not explain what I saw.

And I asked...  If I was a psychopath, with enough wealth to buy anything and anyOne I wanted to, and given that money = power (power over Others is something psychopaths seek), would I be motivated to create a false "reality" for the masses and thereby manipulate Them?  I think You can figure out what answer I came up with.  And would that explain what I see?  Absolutely.

Now, given that money is merely the accounting token used to account for Our Human energy, it would follow that free energy would threaten fully the accounting for Our energy.  If I was a psychopath, with enough money to buy sites like Wikipedia, the media, the education system, etc., would I do all I could to suppress and hide free energy?

And given I personally know that electrogravitics offers both gravity control and energy from the aether (the electromagnetic field that pervades the universe), and that it went into black projects, such efforts to hide and suppress would explain what I see completely.

So I am neither a "conspiracy theorist," nor am I a "conspiritard," but rather...  I am a conspiracy analyst.  And given this analysis, knowing that conspiracies are the NORM in history and that they didn't just stop some years back, I conclude that conspiracies abound.  That explains perfectly what I see.

Love always.