Hi Eric, I am really happy to hear that you have a significant other and friends that are like family! This is so important! Have you had the possibility to talk openly withthem about your flashbacks? Two years are quite a long time, have you ever considered getting professional help. It is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. When a loved person dies, this is a very serious and abrupt change of your life. It is totally comparable to a deep physcial wound. And if people have a physical wound, they would immediately go to a physician.
I can totally believe you that getting flahsbacks is not very pleasant at all! If you have the feeling that it limits and restricts your life and if you feel psychological strain, you should really think of letting others who are trained to do such things (e.g. psychologists) help you.
Would love to hear your opinion on this. And thanks for being that open! It is highly appreciated.
CU,
Chris